The Lord is good!

After months of going through a trying phase which includes – depression, emotional breakdown, agitation and more more stress, I can wholeheartedly say now that the Lord is still good! He remained to be faithful despite my unfaithfulness to Him for the past few months that I struggled trusting Him and being satisfied in Him; by being content with what I have and where I’m currently at in my life. I can now joyfully say that it was indeed necessary for my sanctification and I thank Him for that.

No, I am not proud of how my disposition was in the last few months.  I really thought I’d quit. Well, I did feel like I wanted to, but then the Lord had other plans. It took a while, but after being intentional in wrestling with Him through prayer and reading/meditating on His word, I have come to realize the reason why I suffered a sort of "self-inflicted depression."  It was because I was focusing too much on myself, what I think I lack, what I think I need, what I think I must have and all sorts of “what I…” I dwelt too much on things na gusto ko makuha pero alam kong di ko naman agad pwede makuha so nag paka brat ako before the Lord. I even became angry at Him (shame on me) for not giving me what I want.  It was too much, I was so full of myself and it was really dark phase to be in.

  

Yet while I was on my gloomy side, the Lord still made me feel loved by blessing me with people whom He used to get my attention back to Him.

First was the surprise birthday bash my Connect family gave me, it was planned by two of the ladies I’m discipling, Olive and She, and was attended by almost all of the Connect growth groups.

I really cried when I saw what they did for me. They set up a room for me, may photo booth, they brought food for my handa, I received a number of gifts and then I got a bouquet of roses pa.  

Teary-eyed me with ate Lea who gave me flowers.

Some of the gifts I received from my Connect family. And look at those eye bags! Hahaha!

My handa. 

With the Connect Ladies

And the Connect Men!

It was really humbling and unexpected. I never thought I’d receive such surprise after being out of the picture since I was on leave for the whole month of August in my Connect involvement.  John told me after that night “Kita mo, madaming tao ang nagmamahal sayo.” Just affirming!

Second was our Balesin Island Trip, a belated wedding gift by our Ninong, Tito Mike Asperin.  It was also a chance for John and I to have a moment na kaming dalawa lang in celebration of our third year anniversary as husband and wife.

First night in paradise!
We had Greek dinner at Thanassis Taverna, at Mykonos Village. 

Grabbed from Tita Charu's facebook.
This was day 2, we had brunch at Warung, Bali Village with the Asperin Couple and Doc Jovic.

Feeling wala sa Pinas pose. Bumalik kami sa Mykonos Village, my favorite village in Balesin.

At Toscano Village. Photo credit to Tito Mike. 

With our beloved Ninong, Tito Mike Asperin.
Thank You, Lord for him!

Day 3 and we went back at Mykonos to experience the whirlpool tub/jacuzzi!

That trip was so of God! It was really humbling and it made me speechless to receive a gift, an expensive one may I say, that I know with my current state na hindi ko deserve.  I really felt like God was humbling me when I first saw our booking confirmation.  I cried. Yung feeling na hindi ka na nga deserving pero bini-bless ka pa rin? Yun ang feeling ko talaga.  Meron pa sa part ko na parang ayoko tanggapin pero naisip ko na lang na, parang grace lang ni God itong gift na ito, hindi ako deserving pero binigay pa rin sa akin, sa amin ni John and so inenjoy at nagpasalamat na lang kami. The experience was memorable not just because the place was a paradise but also because of the stories Tito Mike and Tita Charu shared with us, a story of God's faithfulness in their life na talaga naman lalong nang-rebuke and nang-encourage sa akin. It was really, God-ordained.  John and I were so blessed by that thre-day vacation. 

I thought after the Balesin trip I’ll be totally okay. Hindi pa pala. May mga ilan pa rin akong naging eksena and then it took a fight with John para talaga magkaroon ako ng major turning point to realize things. Napakabuti pa rin ng Panginoon, He really made a way para maging maayos ang heart ko.  Sa mga quiet times ko lately and Bible reading ina-affirm Nya lang ako na kailangan ko lang ma-satify sa Kanya because He is the only One who can truly satisfy all my needs. Sabi Nya sa Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Hindi pala ako nagde-delight sa Kanya at kaya lumayo ang heart ko at hindi ko ginusto kung ano ang gusto ng heart Nya, kung ano ang will Nya for me kaya ako naging miserable. Huhu! And just like the Samaritan woman at the well with whom Jesus revealed Himself to be the Messiah, I have found myself somewhat telling God "Sir, give me this water so that I won't get thirsty and have to keep coming here to draw water." -John 4:15 and then Jesus answered na Sya ang living water.  It was a great reminder for me.  Oo nga naman di ba? Nag lo-long ako ng mga bagay na hindi naman talaga makakasatisfy sa akin, while all along the Lord is with me.  And ayun na nga, because I'm so full of myself, di ko nakita agad yun. Ang haba pa tuloy ng pinagdaanan kong mga eksena.

Pero ayun nga, ang galling lang. The Lord is really good!  He still did not let go of me even if I felt like REALLY giving up.

Allow me to share my devotion the other day na sobrang relate na relate ako, "God heals by humbling" by John Piper:

“I have seen his ways, but I will heal him; I will lead him and restore comfort to him and his mourners, creating the fruit of the lips. Peace, peace, to the far and to the near,” says the LORD, “and I will heal him.” (Isaiah 57:18–19)

In spite of the severity of man’s disease of rebellion and willfulness, God will heal. How will he heal? Verse 15 says that God dwells with the crushed and humble. Yet the people of verse 17 are brazenly pursuing their own proud way. What will a healing be?

It can only be one thing. God will heal them by humbling them. He will cure the patient by crushing his pride. If only the crushed and humble enjoy God’s fellowship (v. 15), and if Israel’s sickness is a proud and willful rebellion (v. 17), and if God promises to heal them (v. 18), then his healing must be humbling and his cure must be a crushed spirit.

Isn’t this Isaiah’s way of prophesying what Jeremiah called the new covenant and Jeremiah called a new heart? He said, “Behold, the days are coming, says the Lord, when I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel . . . I will put my law within them and I will write it upon their hearts; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people” (31:31, 33).

Isaiah and Jeremiah both see a time coming when a sick, disobedient, hard-hearted people will be supernaturally changed. Isaiah speaks of healing. Jeremiah speaks of writing the law on their hearts.

So the healing of Isaiah 57:18 is a major heart transplant — the old hardened, proud, willful heart is taken out and a new soft, tender heart is put in which is easily humbled and crushed by the memory of sin and the sin that remains.

This is a heart that the lofty One whose name is Holy can dwell with and give life to.

I thank Him because He is just wise like that. And I am now looking forward for better days, for a better me na not full of me but full of Him. I pray He’ll find me faithful again, by His grace syempre.  The Lord is still good and indeed His mercy endures forever! 

Had a bad day

It was a bad day today at work.  And I hate myself.

Why does it always have to happen when I'm having a post-menstrual-syndrome?  I got a failed QA at work and had a coaching session with my team lead and it was bad.  I cried out of annoyance.  And then later I regret that I reacted that way.

Yup, this is me. This is the rajshbratinella in me that I'm struggling dealing with.  I am praying and really looking forward to that day that I'll be a better me, that I can truly say I am more Christ-like.

I want to quit work.  Oh if only I could, I really would.

Oh yeah, it was a bad day! I'll stop na. Just want to let it out a bit.

Sigh.  

On wanting God again for a better Rajsh

I have just read Ephesians chapter one and this is how I prayed and responded to God after reading His word.

"Forgive me Lord for I know I have not been faithful to You...  I am so ashamed of myself and really feel unworthy of You...  But still, thank You for reminding me that You have called me to be holy and blameless before You on the account of Christ's finished work at the cross.

Thank You also for reminding me that the intention of Your will is kind and out of Your unconditional love for me... That You purposed for ll things to work together for my good.

I indeed ask Lord that You please give me wisdom and revelation of knowledge of Christ... That my heart be enlightened and see clearly (once again) the hope of my calling in You... And once again desire to bring glory to Your name.

Help me Lord be patient with myself and with You as You lead me back to You again.

Sorry again Lord for failing You. "

I sure am hoping for a "better Rajsh" in the coming days, by God's grace. Amen. ☺️

Happy Birthday Sheila!

The photo doesn't really do justice in showcasing how nice, kind, sweet, and thoughtful this lady is.
And oh, she is a breath of fresh air too! :)

To a very dear friend friend, sister in Christ, business partner, and a sweetheart, happy happy birthday today, She-she!

9 And it is my prayer that your love may abound more and more, with knowledge and all discernment,10 so that you may approve what is excellent, and so be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, 11 filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God. -Philippians 1:9-11

It's been really awsome to have had the privilege of journeying with you! And yep, I miss our time together.

Our first d.date together, two years ago.

Throwback two years ago:
Because we have the same birthday month!

Our first d.date together January this year. 

I thank God for using you to be my source of encouragement and help.  And just like everyone else, it is really a blessing to have you in my life, in many ways that I think I have told you naman na din. Hehe.  May you continue to grow in the Lord, by His grace, for His glory.

Welcome to the line of three. Hehe. I love you She! Thanks again for being such a sweetheart! ☺

Ps... John prayed for you kanina before our dinner. Dinamay nya sa prayer nya for our food. Hehe. 

Birthday Wish List

I'll be turning 31 on the 25th of this month. Wala naman siguro masama na magsulat ng wish list ko ano? Hehe. Libre naman ang mangarap right?

In no particular order:

• More time to rest and more time to be busy at home - no explanation needed. Haha!
• A trip to Baguio on my own - to have a personal silent retreat. And yes, Baguio talaga! Gusto ko ma-enjoy ang OMF Baguio Home or PBTS siguro, if possible. 
• A large teddy bear - I wanted a dog sana kaso di pa namin kaya ni John mag-alaga money and time wise, so I thought having a teddy bear that I can sleep with and hug at night will do. Haha! Natatawa ako sa explanation ko. 
• Foot massage - my feet are just tired like me. 
• New mobile phone - because what I have now is giving up on me again. Twice na ako nagpalit ng battery, few months old pa lang ang charger ko and yet bumibigay na naman ang baterya. Hindi na ako mag-sa-Samsung after this. 
• A weekend picnic date in UP Diliman Sunken Garden with one or two people dear to me. 
• Slow juicer - baka sakali na ma-engganyo akong seryosohin ang healthy diet. LOL!
• Vacuum cleaner - para mas simot ang dumi sa bahay.
• A date with my discipler-ninang-teacher Carol - which will happen this month! Wohoo! Sana walang aberya on the date she've set for us to meet. Hehe. It's been a year since we last saw each other, August 2014. 

So there... If God would allow it lang naman, those'll be great as birthday gifts for me! Pero kung hindi naman, kahit yung rest na lang po Lord please? Hihi. May tawad pa di ba? :-p

Anyway, itutulog ko na nga ito. Gabi na. Ktnxbai. :)

On Leave

I have just "filed" for a leave for one month from my Connect Ministry involvement.  I'm taking a break so I can physically rest and at the same time, Lord-willing, further assess/discern where I'm at in my walk.

I have been in touch with a number of counselors in our church and REST is one of their major recommendation for me. Which is an affirmation! Yehey!

I'm still praying that my application for a Leave of Absence (LOA) from work be approved.  I'm also looking at taking a break from work for 30 to 45 days so I can rest and be busy at home with John.

While "on leave" I'll probably be updating this blog more often.  I want to record my journey on this trying phase that I'm going through right now.

Sigh. I'm really super hoping and praying to be really okay soon. 

Happy birthday, my God's best!

My forever crush. My forever love, my John-lord! ♥

I am just thankful right now for how the Lord has been very faithful to my dear husband. And I'm looking forward for more years of God's faithfulness to him, kasi 'matic, kadamay ako kahit hindi naman ako deserving. Grabe, nakakabless si Lord!

Cheers!

I'm very happy that before he left for work kanina, he looked very happy.  I'm also happy because of the flood outside na hindi nakapagpa-pasok sa kanya sa opisina ng maaga, we got to have a birthday salubong toast! Yay! :)

I've been celebrating with him his birthday for the seven years now and each year, it gets harder and harder to think of a gimmick to surprise him! Hahaha! And so as I look back sa mga nakaraang taon, these pictures just made me smile.

Note: not all are from his past birthday though.

Throwback Thursday for my husband's birthday!

Wedding nila P.Eug and Osie nito

July 24, 2010 - surprise birthday bash for John. Here with us is our mentor, ninong and the one who officiated our wedding, Rev. Raul Caguin!

Baguio Trip in 2011. My fave picture with him for that trip. Haha!

Kunwari pre-nup shoot daw namin nito! Hahaha!

July 23, 2011 at 12:00am, in his office

He was surprised! ♥

Happy birthday again my love!

♫ I wanna love you, forever I do.

I wanna spend all of my days with you.

I'll carry your burdens and be the wind at your back.

I wanna spend my forever - forever like that. ♪

Okay

I just want to be okay again.  For the past months, I've not been "stable" really. My disposition are more inclined to the negative things that I have learned to dwell on and boy it's really not healthy anymore. I'm tired of feeling this way.

I want to go back enjoying things as it is, being thankful no matter what is going on in my life and being a source of blessing to the people around me.

I really want to be okay. I'm tired of crying over things that I have no control of; things that I could not change. I want to live out what I've been saying in my textblast-- that God is sovereign, therefore He can surely be trusted!

I just want to be okay. 

Overflowing favor!

Connect in Bahay Tuluyan Volunteers

If it were not for God's overflowing favor and provision, the Connect Outreach Program Year 3 for Bahay Tulyan last July 4, 2015, will not be possible. And that is why I'd like to express our overflowing thanksgiving to the Lord for these people whom He used to bless the children of the said center. 

On behalf of the Outreach Planning Team (Alex, Fhang, She, Rose and Clark), a big thank you to the following:

• USANA - c/o Clark and Diane de Guzman for the shampoo and vitamins
• Jollibee Foods Corporation - c/o Jeff Tan for our lunch
• Universal Robina Corporation - c/o Pstr Bj Sebastian for our snacks
• Mark and Sarah Mendoza - for the slippers
• Clark and Diane de Guzman - for the hygiene products and devo kit give away
• Mr. Jessie Balajonda - for the sack of rice
• Connect Growth Groups - for all their financial, time and energy contributions

Sharing few photos:

Social worker, Ms. Tin for a quick briefing.
And notice, may ginawa pang banner ang mga bata where it says "Welcome to Bahay Tuluyan"

Lunch time!
Thank you Jollibee and URC!

Snacks for the kids courtesy of URC. 

Gifts for the kids!

A pair of slippers who made this kid happy and shocked, I guess! Hehe. :)

We hate to say goodbye but we will see ou again next year!

Special thanks also for the support of our church, Greehills Christian Fellowship (GCF Ortigas) -through the Board of Elders, our Senior Pastor Larry Pabiona, Ate Chette King, Pastor Emer Manaloto, Pastor Eugene Geanga, our ministry assistant, Phoebe Guerra- had given us, also to the people who weren't able to join but still gave of their resources Bea, Rose, Lem and Thon and also to those brethren who prayed for and with us for this outreach.  We have an endless thanksgiving because of God's overflowing blessing and favor through all of you! Thank you all so much!

And of course, thank You so much Lord, because ultimately all good gifts come from You!

Thank You dear Lord for allowing us to be usable for the furtherance of Your kingdom. Amen.

See you again next year, Bahay Tuluyan! 

Depressed

Yes, I've been feeling very depressed lately. I lost count na pero ilang weeks na akong walang lumilipas na araw ang hindi ako umiiyak at papasok sa trabaho na namumugto ang mata.

I feel lonely and unappreciated. Most of the time I am criticized, seldom do I get affirmed. I'm thinking yan ang pinang-gagalingan ng issue ko sa ngayon but I'm still not sure.

I want to rest from everything. If I could, I want to stop thinking about all the things I have in mind.

I just feel very tired and really sad.

Praying I'll get through this very soon. 

My Buzz Group Members

Looking at these pictures the other night made me cry... because I miss them! I just realized that even with the 4-day youth camp, bitin pala ang time namin together! And so I'm really praying I could spend more time with these girls, not just only inside our youth growth group meeting every week but also more one-on-one dates with them!

L-R: Cure, Janine, myself, Iris, Arielle and Shane

I lovingly forced them to do my signature pose! Hahaha! :D

Here holding our commitment banner. Mine says "#FaithfullyConsistent."

I can't believe may mga bago akong minamahal sa buhay through them!

I pray that God would find me faithful in walking along side them as they grow in spiritual maturity and Christ-likeness. They are just like a breath of fresh air for me! Mga bata na pampawala ng stress!


Love you girls! :)

#TiisPaMore

And so I came home form work today very tired, not because of heavy work load but because of heavy traffic na inabot ng more than an hour from Estrella-EDSA to our apartment here in Mandaluyong. Sa sobrang kapaguran, I found myself crying habang namamalansta ng damit ni John. I couldn't help but cry kasi how I really wish I could have the time freedom that I've been longing for for the past few months.

Yung tipong hindi ko na kailangang magmadali kapag dating ko from work kasi I need to prepare our dinner, John's things for office and then I would struggle to sleep early because I have work the following day pa. Yung tipong I can sleep ng mga minimum 10hrs everyday since ang laki-laki ng utang kong pahinga sa sarili ko. Yung tipong John and I would have more time together, specially in our quiet time as a couple, more bonding and all. Yung tipong I am just managing a businss wherein hawak ko yung oras ko. Yung tipong dahil well rested ako, I'll have more energy for the ministry that I'm involved with. Yung ganun.  I guess I can say, yun ang pina-pangarap ko ngayon. TIME FREEDOM.

Pero hindi pa pwede sa ngayon. And even though it's a sad reality, I know I have to persevere. I have to continue trusting on the Lord for His plans for our life.

I'm thinking it's my PMS week, kaya siguro nag-e-emo na naman ako.

Oh well, I know I'll get through this by God's unlimited grace. Kaya for now tiis-tiis pa more! 

On waiting and trusting Him

A growth group member shared in our viber group chat a concern she has at work. I said I'll pray for her and reminded her of our lesson last Saturday in Romans 8:28 where it said that in good times or bad, all things are working together for the good-- being made in Christ-likeness, being changed from glory to glory-- of those called to salvation by God, those people who love Him. And while I type those words, I am also speaking to myself. 

I am struggling with the fact that I have to endure being on a 10 am to 7 pm schedule at work. That is the worst schedule that the management could give me because it will basically compromise our (John and I) time together since he works at night. By the time I arrive home, he needs to leave na.  By the time he arrives home in the morning, I need to leave na otherwise I'll be late because of the traffic. And so because of all these factors, I struggle and find myself feeling like I want to resign na talaga, as in if only I could, I'd submit an immediate resignation. BUT it's also clear, given our current financial situation that I cannot afford to quit working as of yet. 

So for now, I am praying that God will allow me to see things in His perspective. Just as His word said, it is certain that this change of schedule did not go about without His approval or just by chance, kasi sabi sa word Nya "all things work together for good" so this is not an exception. I have to accept that every moment as I trust in Him and wait upon His perfect timing when will I be able to leave my job. I have to trust Him because He knows what He is doing with my life. 

Wait for the Lord;
be strong, and let your heart take courage;
wait for the Lord!
-Psalm 27:14

Making memories with him

John and I have been married for 2 years and 8 months today. Wala lang. Hahaha!

Early this evening when he played spotify, the first song that played was "The Way You Look tonight" by Michael Buble. And if you know that song, you know how romantic it is to dance it away with someone you love. Hahaha! And so inaya ko sya sumayaw kami (sway sway ba while hugging each other). Ayaw pa nya kunwari but he obliged din naman ng konti. And that I find really cute and sweet of him. Silly things that we do (or should I say, I do to him. Haha) when we're together. I love it and I will forever cherish having those kind of sweet moments with him.

Before he left for work, I shared to him my quiet time this morning in Psalm 18:25 where David said "To the faithful You show Yourself faithful, to the blameless You show Yourself blameless,..." and how I realized that indeed it's true that when God's children are aligned to God's heart and will and when we obey Him faithfully, kitang kita natin ang pagiging faithful Nya. But when we go against Him and resist and disobey, ang feeling natin kay Lord unfair Sya. And then John said in reply: "May sasabihin ako tungkol dyan bukas."  To which I answered: "Ano iyo?" sumagot uli sya: "Bukas na ba ngayon?"  And then we both laughed! It's just sweet. I find it really sweet!

I love making memories with him. I really am thankful to the Lord He led me to John.

(Que music: ♫ How sweet it is to be loved by you! ♥ )

Looking forward for more and more memories with my hubby dear! 

Physically Tired

I feel so tired and I feel like I owe a debt to myself in terms of quality rest. L

I realized for this month, I’ve been actively involved in the ministry, and I mean more active than the usual… which I enjoyed and I’m grateful to God for, for the opportunities given to me serving Him and His people! From the youth camp on April 30 to May 3, then Connect Agents’ Day on May 16 and then Connect Leaders’ Retreat last weekend, May23-24. Hataw na hataw lang ang peg ko. Hehe. I love it! But I think because of my age (yuck ang tanda ko na!) and because of having to deal with vertigo, I feel very, very tired!

To the point that, I feel like sleeping longer and not go to work. Hahaha! J Pero hindi pwede, dahil sa vertigo ko na umubos ng leaves ko first quarter pa lang ng taon na ito, I cannot afford to file leaves kundi ma-sa-sacrifice ko mga ganap ko sa mga susunod na buwan.

Haaay… What to do?

Lord, allow me to rest in You and kahit na struggle din ang pag enjoy ko sa quiet time ko everyday this week, I pray that You’ll still open my heart and mind to Your word and enable me to obey You wholeheartedly. And sana Lord wala kami pasok on June 12, para maka-rest ako… J

Being Groomed by Christ

Just want to share a photo of our growth group. 

(L-R seated) Alex, Clark and Diane
(L-R standing) Gold, myself, Fhang and She

Connect-Being Groomed by Christ (B.G.C.) Taken last weekend when we had our Leader's Retreat at Mt. Makiling Recreation Center in Sto. Tomas, Batangas.

I will probably have a separate entry for that.

For now, good night! 

Going Back

Today, I realized I want to go back blogging my thoughts and feelings!

I want to go back kahit na mas madali mag-express ng sarili (as easy as on touch or one click) at mas maraming “audience” sa facebook. Baka kasi masyado na ako nag-e-enjoy sa mga LIKES and comments to the point na baka yun na ang pinaka motive ko—to get attention to myself.

And so here I am, going back on being on low profile. Naks!

Sorry my dear blog, I have neglected you for few years now but I will try my very best to be intentional in updating you more often starting today. A lot of things happened and the thing is, I do not know where to start. Nyahahaha!

For now, here are few things that I’ve been up to:

1.       Early this year, I turned over the growth group leadership of Connect-B.G.C. (formerly Connect-Taguig) to my brother in Christ, Alex Manipon. It’s been both a joy and a struggle. JOY – because finally, a man has stepped up and has taken over the leadership. As how God designed it, lalake talaga dapat ang leader. Paul said in scripture that he does not permit a woman to have authority over a man. And yun ang pinaka basis namin why we both agreed and prayed for him to take over the leadership of our growth group. STRUGGLE – because since I led the group from the start, it’s not easy for me to totally let go of the leadership.  That there are still instances that I tend to be too controlling over Alex. Which I know very well that I shouldn’t be doing. It’s in my nature to lead and yes, have authority over a man especially when I know na I’m ahead of him in terms of my relationship with the Lord BUT I’m working on, by God’s grace, toning down and just be his back up help so he can continuously step up and really fulfill his role as my leader. Mahirap kaya sya struggle pero I know naman God is at work, kailangan ko lang maging “in step with the Holy Spirit” para less sablay. One of the things I’m very grateful for is that Alex is very patient and very humble. I do not deserve his patience and grace but he is the way he is and I thank God for that. I’m praying that the Lord will find me faithful in really stepping down, totally letting go and completely trusting HIM as He leads Alex to lead us in our growth group.

2.       Also for this year, I have been given the wonderful privilege of leading a youth growth group. At first I was scared because I have no proper trainings in dealing with teen agers BUT by God’s grace and according to the four young ladies who are part of my Y-Group, they are enjoying my company. I do not know why and how, all I know that it is because of God’s grace that I manage and managing to relate with them. The members of my Y-Group are Bethel, Shane, Arielle and Iris all are half my age! Nyahaha! Lakas maka-oldie feeling! But I love them all; they are the ones who bring so much joy in my heart these days. I’m praying that God will continue to enable me to lead and usher them to Himself alone. Ang take ko sa pagbibigay sa akin ni Lord nitong new role na ito ay parang He’s given me a second chance to be better. Na yung mga sablay ko in the past towards my GG members, with my disciples, hindi ko na magawa this time around. I pray I wouldn’t blow this "second chance."

3.       January this year, I celebrated my 8^th year anniversary with my employer, JP Morgan Chase Bank. If I have blogged last year around December I would have written here that I want to resign na. Like I said, marami na ang nangyari… But now, I’m still with Chase. Although I’m looking forward na for this year, it will be my last year na. Still praying for God’s wisdom and provision if He will allow me to leave the corporate world to pursue a different career which is the next item.

4.       My disciple-Sister in Christ-accountability partner and I will be partnering on an online business. We will be selling clothes in Instagram anytime soon! If you have an IG account, please follow us @sistersinchristmnla and watch out for beautiful pieces for your OOTD. Our motto (hashtag) will be #ModestyIsOur Policy and for now, yan muna ang details. Hehehe.

And it feels good to be able to share few updates about myself here. More to come sa mga susunod pang araw! Let’s do this Rajsh!

Thank You Lord for this! J