Something that made me cry

Just some random cry of my heart that I want to let out.

So my sister-in-law (actually it's my husband's sister-in-law) gave birth to her second child yesterday. Praise and thank God for the safe delivery and no complications! I think they will be discharged any time soon.

A few moments ago, my brother-in-law shared the photo of his new born baby in our family GC and syempre may kurot in my heart and this thought came to my mind: "That's something that I might not have." and then tears just fell.

It's not that I'm barren or something is wrong with my husband's capacity to give me a child, but it's more of this is something that I'm scared to have and I don't want to have because nga I'm scared. But why am I crying over it? I don't know. I'm sad and scared when I think that I won't get pregnant. I'm scared of carrying one, I'm sacred of raising one. I sincerely feel that I'm not worthy being a mother/parent. And yeah, that makes me cry too.

Again, just letting it out here! :)

Birthday Wish List

I'll be turning 31 on the 25th of this month. Wala naman siguro masama na magsulat ng wish list ko ano? Hehe. Libre naman ang mangarap right?

In no particular order:

• More time to rest and more time to be busy at home - no explanation needed. Haha!
• A trip to Baguio on my own - to have a personal silent retreat. And yes, Baguio talaga! Gusto ko ma-enjoy ang OMF Baguio Home or PBTS siguro, if possible. 
• A large teddy bear - I wanted a dog sana kaso di pa namin kaya ni John mag-alaga money and time wise, so I thought having a teddy bear that I can sleep with and hug at night will do. Haha! Natatawa ako sa explanation ko. 
• Foot massage - my feet are just tired like me. 
• New mobile phone - because what I have now is giving up on me again. Twice na ako nagpalit ng battery, few months old pa lang ang charger ko and yet bumibigay na naman ang baterya. Hindi na ako mag-sa-Samsung after this. 
• A weekend picnic date in UP Diliman Sunken Garden with one or two people dear to me. 
• Slow juicer - baka sakali na ma-engganyo akong seryosohin ang healthy diet. LOL!
• Vacuum cleaner - para mas simot ang dumi sa bahay.
• A date with my discipler-ninang-teacher Carol - which will happen this month! Wohoo! Sana walang aberya on the date she've set for us to meet. Hehe. It's been a year since we last saw each other, August 2014. 

So there... If God would allow it lang naman, those'll be great as birthday gifts for me! Pero kung hindi naman, kahit yung rest na lang po Lord please? Hihi. May tawad pa di ba? :-p

Anyway, itutulog ko na nga ito. Gabi na. Ktnxbai. :)

Making memories with him

John and I have been married for 2 years and 8 months today. Wala lang. Hahaha!

Early this evening when he played spotify, the first song that played was "The Way You Look tonight" by Michael Buble. And if you know that song, you know how romantic it is to dance it away with someone you love. Hahaha! And so inaya ko sya sumayaw kami (sway sway ba while hugging each other). Ayaw pa nya kunwari but he obliged din naman ng konti. And that I find really cute and sweet of him. Silly things that we do (or should I say, I do to him. Haha) when we're together. I love it and I will forever cherish having those kind of sweet moments with him.

Before he left for work, I shared to him my quiet time this morning in Psalm 18:25 where David said "To the faithful You show Yourself faithful, to the blameless You show Yourself blameless,..." and how I realized that indeed it's true that when God's children are aligned to God's heart and will and when we obey Him faithfully, kitang kita natin ang pagiging faithful Nya. But when we go against Him and resist and disobey, ang feeling natin kay Lord unfair Sya. And then John said in reply: "May sasabihin ako tungkol dyan bukas."  To which I answered: "Ano iyo?" sumagot uli sya: "Bukas na ba ngayon?"  And then we both laughed! It's just sweet. I find it really sweet!

I love making memories with him. I really am thankful to the Lord He led me to John.

(Que music: ♫ How sweet it is to be loved by you! ♥ )

Looking forward for more and more memories with my hubby dear! 

Mema = Mema-i-blog-lang :)

My husband and I were on our way home last night riding a cab when I heard the DJ from the radio read poems...One thing I realized while listening to the beautiful poems is: I miss writing! :'(

And yeah, if I really want to improve on that area, I have to write again. I guess I have to blog again. I've been out of this blog for a long time now and up until now, even with an unlimited internet access at home, I still can't figure out how am I suppose to make time for this "hobby."

Sigh.

But we'll see where I'll get from here.

For now, that's all folks! Happy New Year! :)

And so I thought I'd blog! :)

Hello world!

Just dropping by to share that I am now a MRS.

Will tell more about it next time! Pending pa ang internet connection application namin and ang chaka mag blog using my iPad kaya next time na lang. Hehe!

Bow!  :)

-yours truly,
Rajsh Sabio-Velasquez

On the 21st...

On the 21st of this month, John and I will marry each other. Less than 3 weeks na lang! Oh my gosh! Hahaha! :)

And yes, that's the main reason why I've neglected this blog so much and even my wedding blog... Totoo pala na busy ang mag prepare! Hehe!

Ayun lang. Napadaan lang ako. Hope may nagbabasa pa dito. Until next!

Blessings! :) ♥

Kamusta?

Hindi ko alam na nakatingin si John... pampasira, hindi na tuloy mukhang candid! Hmp! :p
Taken last Sunday, during our Theology class. Salamat self-timer at may picture ako! :))

Kamusta naman?

Miss na miss ko na ang blog ko na ito... It's been a while! Akala ko nung una when I bought my iPad I would be able to blog more... hindi pala! Hehehe!

What's up ba kamo? Eto, less than 3 months na lang wedding na namin ni John! And yes, I'm super excited! Pero marami pa kaming dapat asikasuhin so bawal magmadali! Hehehe!

God's been so good to me... I will share it na lang when I have more time!

Thank you for dropping by today.

Blessings to you! :)

Tweet, tweet!

I have been very, very active with twitter lately... You can follow me if you want (@rajshsabio).

I tweet everyday! Hahaha!

And I miss blogging here... But my time lately doesn't permit me to really focus and write stuff that much. Good thing there's such a thing as micro-blogging-- twiter! Yeah!

Anyway, just dropping by... I'm hoping and praying to be able to write something here soon. There's a lot to write about actually... But then... ako na ang busy! :p

Hope you are having a good one! Blessings! :)

My jacket

I was given this jacket at work because of my five year tenure. Hehe. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy with this... and kahit naman walang kahit ano ang ibigay sa akin ang employer ko I'm still good. The fact that I belong to this company (for five years and counting) is a big blessing from the Lord na!

Anyway, just a quick post... How do you like my jacket? :p

Personalized syempre... pero gusto pa ring hiramin ng sister ko regardless! lol

Proud to be here in JPMC!

Do I look happy or what? Hahaha!

So, how are you doing friends?

Sorry if I've been too busy updating this blog. I wanted to write/share something about how the Lord's been working in my life and a "holy week" related post sana kaso kulang oras ko sa ngayon... :(

'Til next na lang! God bless!

...thanks again to my bro Sai for taking my vanity photos! :p

Bakit?

Bakit Hindi ako makapag upload ng pics from my iPad? :(

Sige, idi-discover kita.. Wait mo lang! Hmp!

Hehehehe!

Teak, Dapat nauwi n ako...

Bye!!! :p

Testing, testing...

I miss my blog so much! So eto, at sinusubukan ko magblog using my iPad! Oh yeah! :)

Gusto ko ito!

I like it when John and I wear similar clothes. Just like nung Sunday, we both wore stripes and almost the same shoes! Haha! Ang cute lang. Love team na love team! :p

Saan tayo nakatingin?

Are you sleepy my love?

Why am I hiding? lol

Pardon if this is me and him again... I can't think of anything to post as of the moment. :)

Until next time... God bless our week!

Where have I been?

Boy, I missed my blog so much! I miss you so much! Hahaha! I want to blog everything that had happened over the last- what, one week na pala?! -yeah, one week, but heck andami nila!

Sorry, been busy and needed to focus on my work and also I have to give up blogging from the office. Hehe. Long story... Basta yun na yon! Will share next time.

Anyway, I went to Divisoria earlier to check out some wedding stuff and here's one of my favorite:

How do I look? :)

Special thanks to my dear friend Claire for accompanying me today.

I really, really appreciate it sis! Mwuahugs!

And so, that's all folks! That's it for now...

Hope you're having a great week! The Lord is good and His love endures forever! :)

Gloomy

I can say I am doing well today—hindi naman ako irritable, masungit, mataray and mukha namang in good condition ang state ng heart ko but I feel so gloomy… My whole body feels weak, and then may pasundot-sundot na head ache and parang may nagbabadya na pananakit ng puson.

Dear PMS, minsan hindi ka na talaga nakakatuwa ha! :( 

Kayo, kamusta naman Tuesday nyo? Natraffic ba kayo at nahirapang sumakay kaninang umaga sa Edsa?

Hope you're having a good one! God remains to be good and I know I'm blessed to have Him in my life! :)

New flats!

Sa wakas, nakabili na rin ako ng new shoes... I thank God for His provision! I got extra money to spare from my sweldo so I was able to buy these cute flats from The Little Things She Needs:

When John saw these, akala nya wine! Hahaha!

Flats #1

Flats #2

I shall use one of you tomorrow when I get back to work! Yey!

Salamat din kay Laureen Uy na sobrang magaling mag-promote, sa kanya ko nalaman ito at talagang na-curious ako sa brand na ito. 

Good thing meron nito sa Robinson's Galeria. Bought these yesterday before going to church. Only P1,199.00 two pairs. If you buy only one pair that would cost you P699. Ayun wala lang, share lang! Hehe.

Look at me

Blessing na hindi naman halata sa hitsura ko na stressed ako... Would you agree? Hehe!

Anyway, for my fourth blog entry of the day... Here's some vanity pics taken last Saturday and yesterday, Sunday.

Taken last Saturday morning, while waiting for other GG members.
Thank you Jonas Acorda for this photo. :)

Taken yesterday after our Bible study.
Pa-cute at pa-tweetums. Felling teenager? lol
Thank you Sai Dapitan for this pic and the rest below.

Sisters in blue.
How do you like my earrings?
Special thanks to my sponsor, Analyn Santiago, for these pretty, pink and circle dangling earrings! :)

And one last time...
Raya and Rajsh.
Beautiful! :))

Pagbigyan na, Monday naman eh! lol! Anu daw? :D

Hope you're having a good one! Blessings!

Loved

Just want to share photos of the gifts I received for 2011 Christmas. Very touched, grateful and felt so loved!

Got this sa Connect GG Christmas party, an exchange gift from Cecille

from my former Sup who is now an OM, Ms. Katie. :)

from a colleague, Kuya Paul

third chocolate from a colleague, Ate Hazel
And yes, you guessed it right! I have a very sweet tooth! hehehe:)

from a colleague, Ate Beth
and a coffee lover too! sakto pati itong gift cause my tumbler got broken na! :)

from a colleague, Bermie
my favorite color! and this one is very useful as I do my qt, journal, studies, accounting and all...
Ballpen po ito. cute noh? :)

my "something useful" from Ate Hazel
isa pa itong super timing and yes nagagamit ko tlaga sya everyday! love it!

from a dear friend, Mich
more sticky notes! love the design, so me! :)

from my co-leader in Connect and churchmates, Ate Lea and Julie
pwede itong kikay kit or lalagyan ng pen, pencil, post-its and other small stuff.
and the bracelet I believe is from Boracay. :)

from a colleague and a disciple, Fhang
very sweet of her to give me this jewelry... i love pearls!

"something descriptive" gift from Ate Hazel
super useful and very me daw! hahaha! OC kasi ako at madalas mag-accounting so kailangan ko daw nito.
at hindi ko pala nakunan ng pic yung "something memorable" nasa office kasi! hmp!

now this one is just the sweetest gift from my GG members...

Words of affirmation! :)

from Art
Thanks too bro!

from Jem
...awww...

from Amor
...praise God!

from Ryan
...you're a blessing too bro! :)

from Jane
...I treasure our freindship my dear!

from Travis
...Wow, humbling and overwhelming!

and from Jonas
...this is almost exaclty what I wrote/told him in my note for him. Thanking God for you bro! :)

here's all of them. :)
The books are from Ate Hazel, remember my "Traditional but priceless" post?

and may humabol, chocolate (4th na ito) and lipstick from Australia courtesy of Noel, Kate and Nikki (John's brother and his family)

Btw, if you are wondering asan ang gift sa akin ng mahal kong si John, hindi ko pa po nakukuha... It's a GC! Hindi pa kasi kami nagkakaroon ng chance to go shopping for my gift. Hehe. :)

Anf I just remembered, I haven't taken a photo of the gifts from Misha, a CD entitled "Stand Up" and from Jonas a Philip Yancey book entitled "Disappointments with God."

Sorry brothers in the Lord if wala dito ha? But I assure you, I really appreciate your gifts! :)

How sweet di ba? Who wouldn't feel loved sa mga unexpected gifts na ito?

Thank You Lord for these... :)

Didn't realize it meant something until...

I received this e-mail about an hour ago. From a colleague:

Rajsh,

Thank you for what you just did when you passed by my station.

Alam mo ba, prior to going here sa office, I passed by sa chapel malapit lang dito. Nakasara siya. I wanted to talk to God. Tapos dumating yung caretaker ng church, may kasamang mommy at kids.

Kinuha nung caretaker yung susi ng chapel. I felt na pinagbuksan ako ni God and He wanted to hear me out, listen to what I have to say.

During my short stay there, I prayed for Him to hug me kasi I am going through a phase of misunderstanding with ** ***. I feel burdened.

Ikaw yung sinned Niya to give me the hug I was asking for.

With that, thank you. Thank you. :)

And all I did was bumeso sa knya and greeted him good morning with a side-view hug (more of akbay actually).  It was just a usual routine for me... And yet, nakaka-amaze lang to learn how that simple act of courteousness made a difference, and how it brought a comfort from a burdened friend.

Thank You Lord for blessing me and making me a blessing to others even in small/little ways like this. :)

Tanong lang

Are you reading my blog?

Why?

Why not?

:)

...seryoso po ako, so I need you to answer me...

Hehehe!

What's up?

Just thought I'd post some random thoughts and photos...

I'm prayerfully excited for next year!

Basag trip lang yung sugat ko eh ano?! Ahahaha!

Excited kasi next year madadagdagan ang suot ko na ring... Yihee! ♥

Check my photo-blog, I posted there other engagement ring pics. :)

Saw and grabbed these in facebook and I'm glad I did...

thank God hindi naman daw nabawasan ang face value ko even w/ my injury. wahehe. :p

few of my GCF-Connect family

mga babae tlaga oh! ay teka kasama pala ako dito! lol

more of our kakikayan with behind the scenes pa!

Photo credits to Julie Galela. Thanks sis sa mga pics! Adik ka lang! :p

By the way, tuloy-tuloy naman po ang pag-recuperate ko from my injury... Eto po ako as of yesterday:

hindi naman halata yung cut ko di ba? or blurred lang talaga tong pic? lol

Thanks po sa lahat ng nag-pray for me!

Ayun lang naman so far. Randomness na ramdomness lang talaga...

Happy lazy Monday! :)