Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Status update

Hello, hello! I've been active in my wedding blog these past few days... Go check it out if you have the chance! Its pinayweddingdiary.blogspot.com. Feel free to comment. :)

That's all for now... Hope you're having a good Tuesday!

Sunday, April 22, 2012

A song of love to You....

♫ Because of who You are
I will lift my hands
I will lift my heart
and sing a song of love to You

Because of who You are
I offer You my life
surrendering my all,
a living sacrifice to You

Because of who You are
everything You are...

I Give You all the glory,
I give You all the praise
I pledge to You each moment
for the length of all my days

My Rock and my Redeemer
May Savior and my Friend

Oh I will ever praise You
Yes, I will ever praise You
Yes, I will ever praise You Lord
Because of who You are...♪

Monday, April 16, 2012

My heart failed yet He is faithful

(I wrote this last week, Friday... full of emotions.
I didn't have Internet connection then so it's just now that I'm able to share it in here.
I pray that beyond my brokenness and emo mode, what you will see is God's love and grace...)

"The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure..." -Jeremiah 17:9

Indeed this verse is so true!

For a long time now (and for the record I do not know when exactly this started) I didn't notice that I have been "nursing" a sin in my heart. I've been holding grudges towards someone and it's taken its toll on me and affected the state of my heart big time!

I haven't been able to enjoy my quiet time like I used to because of this. I knew at the back of my mind and have already felt that there was something wrong (in my heart) but I just shrugged it off and didn't address it right away and so... Whenever I think about the person, whenever I see the person, when over I hear from that person I always gets annoyed. And yeah, I always sin. :(

But God in His faithfulness, as always, knows what is best for me. He knew it needed to be addressed and that I needed to be freed from the sin that calloused my heart... For this week, I have been on my "bratinella" mode especially in the office. I have found myself being my "old self" again-- irate, reklamadora, looking down on others, being prideful and selfish and all that stuff! And He made sure that I got aware of it so I approached Him in my quiet time yesterday and asked for cleansing from it all... I felt "OK" afterwards but then, right after my qt, I failed again... In my heart I hated another person... I was like "what the heck is happening to me?!" then I just went on with my day... Work mode even though I was really distracted. My distraction didn't left until I was on my way home I found myself praying to God "Lord, this needs to be addressed!"

So I arrived home... After doing some chores, I locked myself in my room so I can "wrestle with God."

He lead me to read Psalm 24:3-4 and it says:

"Who may ascend to the hill of the Lord?
Who may stand in His holy place?
He who has clean hands and a pure heart"

I've read that verse before. I've gone through it in my previous qts... But then, even though this verse is not new to me, God spoke to me clearly. He dealt with me and pointed out how unclean my hands were and how impure my heart is before Him for a long time now... He didn't stop there... I didn't stop from there either... He led me more to Himself in repentance as I read more passages: Psalm 26:2-6; Psalm 51:10; Ezekiel 18:31 and so on...

When I prayed earlier what I was actually thinking was how to "fix" my attitude towards the person.  But I am not God, I am not the one who is in control and I'm glad that's the way it is... Where He led me now is exactly what I need. I need to repent from my sin, I need to rid myself from all the offenses that I have committed in my heart, I need to be (once again) broken before Him so I can deal with the attitude of my heart towards the person...

I failed God big time! I sinned and I have been nursing this sin for a long time... But I praise Him for what He did to me tonight...

Allow me to share an excerpt from my journal, my cry to God:

"Yes Lord... I want to have a pure heart before You... I have offended You ng paulit-ulit and I ask for forgiveness... Help me Lord... Cleanse me, purify me and make my heart right before You. Ayaw ko na pong maging masama, bitter, and holding these grudges... I want to be free Lord... I don't want to sin anymore..."

After those words, I wept. I haven't wept that way for a long time now. I was mourning. I broke His heart and I'm such a failure! But then He is really faithful, He sees how broken I am so He once again picked me up by His grace, His mercy and His love, He picked me up! He did this so to give me another chance, to make things right, to sin less and less and to just press on with my eyes fixed on Him and not on people.

Through the Holy Spirit, I know I can do the things He want me to do... To forgive them, just love them and have compassion on them and to keep in mind that everything works for my good because I belong to Him!

As I concluded with my wrestling with the Lord... I told and asked Him these:

"Thank You for still loving me dear God (insert here tears again. Hehe)... Lead me to love You back in my obedience, worship and devotion to You. Take me back on the right track again..."

I praise Him for who He is in my life... Indeed, without Him I am nothing...

Thank You Father, Son and Holy Spirit!

(So now, totoo na ito... Sleep na ako! Just wanted to share that! Good night!)

Spa Date

Spent a time of relaxation with my dear Raymarie at Excelsior Spa yesterday in Robinson's Galleria.

We enjoyed it ng soooobra! Thank God for His provision that we were able to enjoy our time together...

I personally, really love spa! I always go to Excelsior because I am satisfied with their service. I love the fact that they have a sauna bath, shower and locker area and then the massage, is just right! Sulit naman for Php450.00 (Friday to Sunday) and Php400.00 (Monday to Thursday).  Perfect for girls bonding moment!

This was my first time to treat someone I'm discipling ng ganito... Usually kasi eat out lang! Hehe. I'm glad she enjoyed it as much as I did! And she told me she needed that, so sakto pala!

So here are our very few photos to share with you:

Raymarie with her locker key... #3 ba yan or #34? lol

Ready for the sauna!
And yes, that's all folks ang pictures! Very few nga di ba? Sorry I didn't took lots of photos... Relaxation nga di ba? Hehehe!

Anyway, hope you had a wonderful weekend yourself! Bukas, balik work na uli ako...

Good night and God bless us all! :)

Friday, April 6, 2012

My jacket

I was given this jacket at work because of my five year tenure. Hehe. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy with this... and kahit naman walang kahit ano ang ibigay sa akin ang employer ko I'm still good. The fact that I belong to this company (for five years and counting) is a big blessing from the Lord na!

Anyway, just a quick post... How do you like my jacket? :p

Personalized syempre... pero gusto pa ring hiramin ng sister ko regardless! lol

Proud to be here in JPMC!

Do I look happy or what? Hahaha!
So, how are you doing friends?

Sorry if I've been too busy updating this blog. I wanted to write/share something about how the Lord's been working in my life and a "holy week" related post sana kaso kulang oras ko sa ngayon... :(

'Til next na lang! God bless!

...thanks again to my bro Sai for taking my vanity photos! :p

Monday, April 2, 2012


Bakit Hindi ako makapag upload ng pics from my iPad? :(

Sige, idi-discover kita.. Wait mo lang! Hmp!


Teak, Dapat nauwi n ako...

Bye!!! :p