Friday, January 25, 2008

There's a History Behind the Song

*Jologs mode*

Saksi ang YAFE how I went gaga over this song. Crap, nakakahiya! Wahahaha! Tama ba naman kasing sa bus eto yung pinapalabas sa Video on board (videoke ang drama ni manong driver at manong kundoktor) then pagdating ko sa office, wahlah-- eto pa din yung background music! Nyahahaha!

So ayun, na-LSS tuloy ako. At natatwa lang ako sa sarili ko... Crap! Japan-Japan! Hahaha!

"We had the right love
At the wrong time
Guess I always knew inside
I wouldn't have you for a long time

Those dreams of yours
Are shining on distant shores
And if they're calling you away
I have no right to make you stay

But somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
Will come to see
That you belong with me

Sometimes good-byes are not forever
It doesn't matter if you're gone
I still believe in us together
I understand more than you think I can
You have to go out on your own
So you can find your way back home

And somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
Will come to see
That you belong with me
Letting go is just another way to say
I'll always love you so

We had the right love
At the wrong time
Maybe we've only just begun
Maybe the best is yet to come

Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
Will come to see
That you belong
With me

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Naiiyak pa din ako

This song made me cry...
It still does!

"Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not come along with me
That this is not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
I still feel alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It’ll all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home"

Monday, January 21, 2008


Account ng mga Realizations at Pangyayari

1. EMO mode discipleship- it happened Tuesday last week. I did not saw it coming. Usually our discipleship would be tamang halakhakan lang (may cartoon character side kasi si T. Carol eh, hehe!) while sharing and encouraging one another and studying God's Word... But then, life is full of surprises! And indeed God has blessed me and gave me my dear discipler. I never wanted her to think/feel/or to even have "that" burden over a very sensitive issue sa aking buhay... haaayyy.... Sya ang nanguna na umiyak at kaya ayun-- mega crying moment kami together.

2. Prayer time- right after the discipleship, I went to the Prayer Room. Ang ganda ha! KUDOS and PTL for the people who worked hard in remodelling the room. Anyhow, the crying moment was continued sa Prayer Room... I needed to be alone with God to pray for the Tuesday Group (people I've committed to pray for/with every Tuesday) at ipanalangin yung "emo" concern. I enjoyed it. Moments like that are to savour... Being in the loving arms of my Father in heaven...

3. Moment with Missionary- after my prayer time (syempre chronological dapat noh? hehehe!) I went to the wash room para mag-ayos ng sarili, dahil namumugto ang mata ko kakaiyak... May nakasabay akong babae around her 40's, who happens to be a Missionary for Bangkok and Nepal... After over hearing her conversation with someone who went to a cubicle, I initiated the conversation and asked her-- "Missionary po pala kayo?" And it all started there. Sobrang chikahan lang kami, at umupo pa kami sa pantry to be more comfortable. I was praising and thanking God at that moment. Sobrang amazed na naman ako... She shared to me her spiritual warfare sa mission field, her spiritual gifts, mga experiences that tested her faith and such, showed me pictures from Nepal and Bangkok... I wanted to be a missionary (as in) and I shared it to ate Joy (the Missionary), I told her that Missionaries are included in my prayer list and she was so glad kasi kailangan daw talaga nya ng mga nananalangin- not just for her but with her- she gave me something, a prayer guide something, at ayun, sa mga pagkukwentuhan namin, somehow, God gave me an affirmation... Though I still have to WAIT! Habakkuk 2:3! Right after when she prayed for me she uttered-- "And lakas nga ng annointing mo eh!" And before we parted ways, she told me to read the book of Samuel. At sana daw mabasa ko at makita ko yung pinakita sa kanya ni God through Hannah... Hmmm...

4. I just feel so blessed to have my BUNSOs... Both of them are sooo being used by God, as in amazingly sa kanila nag-mamanifest most of the answered prayer concerns. So thank you, and I mean it! They are older than me pero since ako ang Ate sa kanila... Pag umiiral ang mga kaartehan nila as bunso naku iiral din ang ATE mode ko! Nyahaha!

5. January 16th- at 6:26 am I received a text message saying-- "Please pray for my Dad. He passed away last night... Pls pray for my Mom to be steady too... thanks!" It was a shocking news indeed. I have been praying for this friend of mine... Praying to God that He may open doors of opportunity so I can minister to her, share the gospel and stuff. Although I have been doing so for the past months, mga pa-simpleng "evan" mode whenever we're exchanging emails and when making kwentuhan during our breaks... I also gave her a "Toll-free Card - To Set Your Soul Free" thing para may pwede syang basahin... Pero when I received her text message,after praying for her and the family, I was like-- "Lord, how do I minister to someone who just lost her Dad ba?" As in total black out, hindi ko talga alam kung paano... I feel and believe that God is teaching me "something" and I just pray that I may be able to see what's that "something" all about. When I wrote her a letter I shared to her Matthew 5:4. Hopefully when she gets back to work I can get back to my "evan-work" too... Sigh!

6. The discipler in me- I was a bit sad when one of my friend/disciple texted me and said she can't come to the seminar last Saturday. But then God reminded me of Psalm 27:13-14. I was affirmed that He has great plans for the spiritual friendship we are developing... Despite the sad news, atleast one of them (another friend I'm discipling) came! Yehey! And she was so blessed daw... And I praise God for that! May kapalit agad yung disappointment ko dun sa isa. And wait there's more, come sunday afternoon I was doing my devotion and prayer time, I finally said YES to a challenge/privilege a Pastor-friend offered... I'm going to disciple a youth! And I'm so excited about it. I have been praying for an opportunity to serve the Youth ministry (kahit paano) even before I was asked if I can disciple one. Galing-galing ni Lord! I just pray that He will continue to empower me in ministering to them (the three people), that I may reflect His light and sana they will also learn to love the Lord more and more, as in deeply!

7. Family Prayer Meeting- together with my housemates (a.k.a. Majar and Raya), after quite some time, thank God that we were able to have the time, strength and the burden to pray together as ONE family (kahit kulang kami, hehe!). There were some MAJOR issues in the family that needed to be prayed for. As usual, we finished midnight na! We stared the prayer meeting around 10pm, at dahil nga it was few month ago since we prayed together nang ganun, ayun, kahit antok na antok na kami (and to think Majar has to go to UPLB pa the following morning and the two of us ni Raya in CONNECT) GO lang! We laid our personal concerns, I shared to them convictions and realizations over things, burden over our other brothers, concern for Mama and Papa, and such and such! I initiated the prayer meeting to check on how they are doing personally and spiritually, also to encourage them, but little did I know that I would be more encouraged and blessed afterards! We all cried... As in emotional kaming tatlo when we were praying. I was so amazed pa how they prayed for the family and for me... I never realized how I am making an impact in their lives... Ah basta, overwhelmed ako after the prayer time! And I just hope we could do it more often.

8. Another "Joy" in my life- I met her last Saturday, she was introduced by Tita Linda Davis. She became an instant text mate-friend and praise God that she was able to join us earlier in Connect for bible study. Exchanging of text message with her was a blessing! I was surprised that she asked me of discipleship, witnessing and such. I am blessed because she was blessed... Hopefully we could develop deeper friendship in Christ!

9. Discipline- I need more of that! I have a deadline to meet-- April 19, 2008. I have to finish all of my modules and assignments, I have 10 and I have only submitted 2 of them, how delinquent of me! Crap!And I am very disappointed with myself and I am getting so scared with the thought that I might not make it on time and that I might be wasting the investment I put in it. I have been asking people close to me to pray about it! Para maging accountable ako at gawin ko talaga ang dapat kong gawin. I was working on module #3 kanina but still I wasn't able to finish it, so sabi ko I'll do it this week (here we go again)... I'm off from work tomorrow pero I have a schedule meeting up with someone. I don't know how God did it pero the appointment was cancelled, and the first thing that came in to my mind is-- "Magagawa ko yung papers ko!" Somehow answered prayer pa din! Galing-galing!

10. Two weeks of suffering left- and i just can't wait! January 26 and Febuary 2, after those shifts, "Saturday-Sunday OFF" eto na ulet ako! Haaayyy... Two months din akong pinarusahaun dun ah! Romans 8:18

Thursday, January 17, 2008


Subject: wat time lunch nyo?

this morning i just realized how i miss you guys...

since nag-saturday shif kasi ako (at si mike) we never had the chance to go out, na nang tayong tatlo lang...


sana pwde tyong mag-off set na lunch noh?

hehehe! kahit hindi na ako matulog...

" Be quick to listen, slow to speak & slow to become angry... "

Rajsh Sabio
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Scrabble in Stocking Feet

The Ache of Expecting--

"It's like taking a glass and filling it-- first with stones, and you pile them to the top, but there are empty spaces.
Then you try pebbles, and the fit is better, but still there are pockets where nothing goes.
But if you take water, and pour it in, you fill it completely--no empty spaces at all.
You're like that. You fit me. You're like water over stones."

Thursday, January 10, 2008

An Excerpt Worthy of Posting

Here is an excerpt from Dr. Neil Anderson's "The Bondage Breaker"

"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life] will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? If anyone is ashamed of me and my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his Father's glory with the holy angels." Mark 8:34-38


1. Deny Yourself- to deny yourself is to deny self-rule. Until we deny ourselves that which was never meant to be ours (the role of being god in our lives) we will never be at peace with ourselves or with God, and will never be free. When you deny yourself, you invite God to take the throne of your life, to occupy what is rightfully His, so that you may function as a person who is spiritually alive in Christ.

2. Pick up Your Cross Daily- not our own cross but Christ's cross. We are delivered because we died with Him. To pick up the cross daily means to acknowledge everyday that we belong to God. When we pick up the cross, we affirm that our identity is not based on our physical existence but in our relationship with God. Our life is in Christ, because He is our life (see Colossians 3:3-4).

3. Follow Christ- we are not designed to function independent of God. Only when we are dependent on Him and intent of following Christ are we compelled and free to prove that the will of God is good, acceptable and perfect.

4. Sacrifice the Lower Life to gain the Higher Life- if you want to save your natural life, you will lose it (see Mark 8:35).

5. Sacrifice Temporal to gain the Eternal- it is far better to know that we are the children of God than to gain something in this world, which we will eventually lose. Satan's ultimate lie is that you are capable of being god of your own life-- and his bondage is the attempt to live as though his lie were truth.

I always carry this yellow pad paper where I wrote this excerpt (to carry the book all the time would be inconvenient for me eh), purpose is for me to be always reminded of the meaning of being free in Christ and the means to follow Him (all mentioned above). It has also been one of the tools I use in ministering to my non-C friends and to friends who just came to know the Saviour and those whom I am establishing a spiritual friendship (two of my dear friends I am having discipleship) with.

I haven't finished the book though, I am still going through the STEPS TO FREEDOM process and I am just amazed (that little by little) I myself am experiencing true FREEDOM I never realized I am in need of!

Last Christmas Season, I bought two copies of the book and had it as my exchange gift (for Connect and Mosaic Party) because I am blessed to have read the book I would want more people to be blessed! And I strongly recommend that you read it and go through the STEPS TO FREEDOM Process, for you'll never know that there are "small things" that you need to let go of, things you never knew you need to renounce and stuff like that...

Ayun lang!

To god be the glory for Dr. Neil Anderson's Ministry!
You may also visit his ministry website at

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Hope of the Nations by Brian Doerksen

A song for the Country...

"Jesus hope of the nations

Jesus comfort for all who mourn

You are the source of Heaven's hope on earth

Jesus light in the darkness

Jesus truth in each circumstance

You are the source of Heaven's light on earth

In history You lived and died

You broke the chains You rose to life

You are the hope living in us

You are the rock in Whom we trust

You are the light

Shining for all the world to see

You rose from the dead conquering fear

Our Prince of Peace drawing us near

Jesus our hope living for all who will receive

Lord we believe"

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Memory FULL

I was able to get my D900 back last Dec 26 (after more than a month na nsa Service center lang sya at ipinaayos...)

And while waiting for my phone to be fixed, I bought a Samsung E250 as a replacement and at the same time a gift for my dear brother Majar. Hehe! Kaso ayun nga more than one month bago nya na-gamit at na-enjoy ang regalo na yun. Sorry naman daw bunso!

And of course, I have these messages that I received while using the E250 and I have to delete it cause it's eating up the phone memory... Kaya lang, nagpapaka-sentimental mode ako so eto! Ise-save ko sila dito! Hehehe ulet!

Text messages that made me smile, made me sigh, blessed me, encouraged me and all! Some of them dated July-October 2007 came from my sim's memory na kailangan na din idelete... wala lang na-share ko lang din!

Here goes...

071207 / 8:05 am
- Hi, mis u daughter. We praise God 4 d many things He is doing in ur life. who wud ever thnk that ud turn out 2 be what u r? keep on seeking God's best 4 u! :-o

071307 / 12:47 pm
- Rajsh tnx ha! Namis kita! :-)

071207 / 2:46 pm
-ah ok. hehe. ms egypt

071407 / 10:45 pm
- Iyak k sa Lord. I wish I can hug you & share whatever u r feeling. Isipin mo n lng ung Romans 8:18ff. It isnt easy living in a fallen world.

071407 / 10:59 pm
- Am glad these experiences are teaching you new insights of God's character.

071507 / 8:15 pm
- Aaaah. Gud 2 knw na u stil concder me everytym n malungkot ka. kht no nmn mangyari e lagi ka p dn mgnda my prnces rajah.

072307 / 12:36 pm
- Rajsh thank u 4 dat inspiring msge. may u continually grow in Christ and be bold enuf in His words. God bless (",)

072807 / 1:45 pm
-Ok lan un. kmsta k n? Sory d kgd kt ntxt kklod ko lan e. pnthan k sna nmin ni sger pro ms mbti ng mkpgphnga k. pgaling k kgd. dnt mke me wory 2 mch ok?

072807 / 9:30 pm
- Ei rajsh, how are u na? nkpgphnga knb? pnta sna kme mike jan knna kso d agd ako nkbalik s ofis. bk maabala dn phnga mo. i knw ul b fine. was relievd nun cnabi mo n nkauwi kna nd u ddnt hv 2 stay s hospital. nbatem pt ako kya dko mkpgtx. k2uwi ko lan. my med kb tntake? church tyo 2m pgkya mo n ha. pnta ko senyo pgdmo p kya

072907 / 10:48 pm
- Hey, mejo k2uwi ko, pgdaan ko mega e sale, bought 2 pants, 250p each, whahehehe.. ms madami thank you sayo, diko lan m-expres how gr8ful i am..sobra saya ko 2day, ang gaan ng pkramdam..say thank u 4me kina raya at mahar.. i love you nd im so thankful 2 hv u.. mwah!

081007 / 12:50
- :-) thanks. Love u guys too! Good night and God bless! 11:1

091607 / 6:13
- Hi, rajsh, ive told my parents abt my plans 4 baptism, im hapy dat dey naturaly suportd my plans, sbi pa ni mama bsta religion walang dpat pgusapan, kung may personal, spiritual growth then go. biniro ko pa nga dating daan un tlga sasalihan ko, dun dw tlga mgaaway kme. hehe. il invite dem on my day of baptism.

091807 / 12:18 pm
- Hi.

092107 / 5:15 pm
- Rajsh. Thanks 4 praying 4us. im also prayng 4 u guys.. ol of u are such a blesng 4 me.. be still

092507 / 11:36 pm
- Mis u raja

101607 / 7:08 pm
- Bt ngun mo ln ako tnxt? i dnt cr abt d money. hw r u? mbti p n u gv urself a rest 4 d rest of d wik pra mkphnga k ng hus2. dlawin k n lan nmin ni sager lgi.

102307 / 5:20 pm
- ok lng. aq na bahala. rest well. m8k sure everythngs olryt b4 u go bak 2 work. ur health is more impt. God bless and keep me posted.

102607 / 5:05 pm
- We r blesdfuly HAPPY 2 hear that ur nw at home.. praise God!.. ur d 1 hu inspires me/us nsted we r 2 u.. May r loving FATHER graciously cntinue 2 tke care of u & 4u

110307 / 6:44 pm
- Yes, wait... its not easy but its worth it!

110407 / 11:11 pm
- I just would like to share to u because u are important to me. That ____ and I are engaged! :-)

111007 / 12:30 am
- Ryt! God hs reli d prfct tym 4 evriting. tnx 4 bein my silent mentor rajsh! u may nt knw 8 cmplitly, bt asyd frm bein my prayer prtner, ur my mentor. hehe nyt2 sis ;-)

111007 / 11:06 pm
- M proud of u bex! mwuah! txt kta 2mro. nhrapan ako wala pko budget. he2. labyuh.

112207 / 11:28 am
- ei! It was nice seein you guys again. :)

112207 / 11:40 pm
-Tnx a lot. I dnt want to sound problematix pero ang dami lang pagsubok. pnptay kmi d2! Wah. Tpos ayun bsta sna magkatym tyo sa isa't-isa. Na-appreciate tlg kta!

112307 / 5:46 pm
- Happy thanksgiving!

120607/ 8:46 am
- O yes, alam mo ba sobrang fvorite ko ung heb. If ders 1 verse i alwys say out lous in d past fw wks, its heb 12:2-3. tnx rajs.

120707 / 9:28 am
- Gud am! of u pla kgb i didnt knw! hinahanap kita kay gel i thot myskt ka hehe neweiz cu 2nyt hehe

120707 / 10:51 pm
- Daming nghahanap sayo sa gcf. hehehe

120907 / 8:45 am
- I guess what hinders me to worship and fully obey God is the fact that i haven't forgiven those people who have hurt me in the past and present.

120907 / 1:18 pm
- I jz hope u wont get tired of praying and caring 4 me kht mtgas ulo ko. Cz i knw u knw dts wt i needed during ds tyms...

120907 / 1:30 pm
- Thanks 4 gvng me many options. Wther o lyk it, or it i lyk it. either way, i do. slamat po. D ko rn nrealyz na s tgal ntn d ngusap, conio taglish ka nrn pala mgsalita.

121007 / 6:33 am
- Rajsh! Hope ur feeling better. praying 4 u... Mwuah! I miss u na.

121007 / 1:19 pm
- tnx dear. Luvya sis

121007 / 2:16 pm
- God bless u 2.. thanx 4 those encouragng words. Keep it up and Be still (",)

121007 / 4:07 pm
- Hay rajsh... Sad tlga yung situation ko. Please continue to pray for me, it is not east and hnd ako ready to reveal it to you kasi nhHya ako. Nga pla paano ka nakakapag-ipo. Gusto ko din matuto. yung tipong i can still give to my family wYl saving up for myself.

...and more to come! Hehehe may mga hindi pa ako nadedelete sa phone ni majar.