Monday, July 28, 2008

Venting out

Disclaimer: Please be patient, God is not finish with me yet.

Okay, so I had to stop for a while and do this... Naiinis ako... How do you tell people you are not comfortable with the way they crack jokes?

Here's how I did it-- I sent them an email:

"You are my friends and I respect you so much... but may I plea that you also respect me? hehe...

Hindi naman po ako galit pero sobrang hindi lang po ako natutuwa sa mga green and S-E-X jokes... especially if you will include my name in it... I have never done it and I'm proud about it kasi it is my way of honoring my Creator... not that I am condemning people who've committed it, nor I'm being so self-righteous, I just want you to know where and what my stand is, what my conviction is about that issue... at dun papasok yung respect. Just want to let you know para wala tayong magiging tampuhan in the furture, and if you have problems with me, sabihin nyo lang din... I am very open for rebuke din naman! :D

Super thanks for your understanding heart... Mwuah! :D
"

Thank God they understood my sentiments. I hope this will be the last time that they will involve me (even my name lang) on something about that 3-letter-word...

Haayyy...

(trabaho na ulet!)

Friday, July 25, 2008

I am not my own...

"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body."

- 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 -

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Romans 12

(A very wonderful reminder and encouragement... Special thanks to Osie for giving me the verse for today 12:1-2!)

Living Sacrifices

1Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. 2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

3For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you. 4Just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, 5so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. 6We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. 7If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; 8if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully.

Love

9Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. 11Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. 12Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. 13Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.

14Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. 15Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. 16Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.

17Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. 18If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord. 20On the contrary:

"If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.

In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head." 21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Monday, July 21, 2008

A Psalm of Single-mindedness

I received an email from a friend who shared this to me...

Thought of posting it here...

A Psalm of Single-mindedness
by Joe Bayly

"Lord of reality
make me real
not plastic
synthetic
pretend phony
an actor playing out his part
hypocrite.
I don't want
to keep a prayer list
but to pray
nor agonize to find Your will
but to obey
what i already know
to argue theories of inspiration
but to submit to Your Word.
I don't want
to explain the difference
between eros and philos
and agape
but to love.
I don't want
to sing as if I meant it
I want to mean it.
I don't want
to tell it like it is
but to be it
like you want it.
I don't want
to think another needs me
but I need him
else I'm not complete.
I don't want
to tell others how to do it
but to do it
to have to be always right
but to admit it when I'm wrong.
I don't want to be a census taker
but an obstetrician
nor an involved person, a professional
but a friend
I don't want to be insensitive
but to hurt where other people hurt
nor to say I know how you feel
but to say God knows
and I'll try
if you'll be patient with me
and meanwhile I'll be quiet.
I don't want to scorn the cliches of others
but to mean everything I say
including this.
"

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

to My beloved...

Para sa pinaka-mamahal ko...

Random thoughts for your special day (as in random kasi hindi ko yan masyadong pinag-isipan, nagmamadali eh... hehe!)

I am not sure if I have expressed how much you mean to me and if I've shown how much I appreciate you and that I really, really praise God for you... Uhm, on second thought, feeling ko naman oo eh, hehe!

I remember one time during our prayer time, your ditse prayed "we thank you for him because he has been our MAN, the man behind us; to take care of us, to assist us, to run errands for us, to pray for us and with us... in the absence of our older brothers and Papa... he is there for us ALWAYS"... And until now that prayer bring tears to my eyes!

You just don't know how much you mean to me (or I think you know that na! Haha! I always tell you naman eh...) Or perhaps you just don't realize how much your presence makes a difference in my life... And how you being away on weekdays make me miss you na parang ang tagal ng isang linggo (O.A. noh?) but it's true!

Kahit na minsan may mga moment na nakaka-inis ka at medyo nakaka-pikon ka kasi ang mature-mature mo mag-isip... That it makes me feel somewhat worried that you won't enjoy your life as you should. I always wanted for you not to go through what we have gone through and I'm thankful na sinasagot naman ni Lord yun! At ibang-iba tlga ang pinagdadaanan mo...

And I hope and pray you will continue to walk in the light... Never ever let go of HIM! Never quit... You are so intense and so passionate with your walk and true enough sometimes it can be so frustrating when people seem to be... Yun na yun! But then that's the time that you have to check where is your focus? On HIM lang, on HIM lang dapat!

"He must become greater; I must become less." -John 3:30

Keep the fire burning, dig deeper and deeper, grow more and more, fall inlove with HIM over and over again... Never get enough, because you won't! Allow HIM to consume you (from the inside out) according to HIS purpose and for HIS glory!

"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." -Philippians 1:6

I am so happy that I have you, as in! I never thought I'd have a best-friend, an accountable and prayer partner and a number one fan (hmm... eto kaya ay imagination ko lng? no.1 fan? haha!) in you pero sooobrang I appreciate you!

And I also want to say sorry for the things I've done na hindi ko dapat ginawa, for the words that shouldn't have been said, for my "disclaimers" na baka na-o-offned ka na or something. And for being ME, yung nakakainis na "Ako" to the point na nasasaktan ko na ikaw... Na nasasaktan ko na kayo... And thank you for being patient with me, thank you for being patient with your ate always...

Basta what I promised you, I will keep... Hindi ko man alam kung paano pero alam ko na si Lord ang bahala sa atin!

Go! Go! Go lang!

Para sa pinaka-mamahal kong bunso:

I LOVE YOU and Happy-happy 18th birthday Majar!

May mga gusto pa akong sabihin pero saka na lang... I'll see you this weekend! HUG!

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." -Psalm 139:13-14

Monday, July 14, 2008

Waaahhh!!!

I can't believe it! This song has been playing in my mind mula nang umalis ako sa bahay until now na nsa office na ako... Anu bah!?! Tama na!!

Waaaahhhh!!!

"I never believed in love
I was deceived by love
I never had much luck with lovers before...

And I couldn't compete
I seemed just part of the street
To be walked on by everyone but then

Then, I found a very special love in you
It's a feeling that's so totally new
Over and over, it's burning inside
And I found a very special love in you
And it almost breaks me in two
Squeezing me tighter
But I'm never gonna let go...

You're not like the rest
I know you're one of the best
You give more than you should and take nothing in return

Stay always with me
And I always will be
The one person that you can count on always to love you

And I found a very special love in you
It's a feeling that's so totally new
Over and over, it's burning inside
And I found a very special love in you
And it almost breaks me in two
Squeezing me tighter
But I'm never gonna let go

And I Found a very special love in you
It's a feeling that's so totally new
Over and over, it's burning inside
I found a very special love in you
And it almost breaks me in two
Squeezing me tighter
But I'm never gonna let go...
"

Kasalan mo ito Kiko! Grrr... Hindi ko ko ito papanoorin noh?! Unless kasama ko kayong lhat! Wahahaha!

Sarah, give me a break please... Waaahhh! Tama na!

Hahahaha!

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Halo-halo



I feel like a halo-halo...

As in mixed... EMO...

-I am in denial, for some reason... Ayokong tanggapin ang katotohanan. I don't (or tama bang sabihin I choose not to) understand you. I would like to believe that we do not speak the same language, and that is why you do not know where I am coming from and same with me... Hindi ko malaman where you are coming from, I am saying something and you are interpreting it the opposite, hehe! How come? Nakakainis at nakakalungkot lang na there has not been any opportunity for us to talk, as in real talk para ma-settle lahat pero... Pero, pero, pero--- the Lord has (a different?) plan! And I just leave it up to Him. For the record-- iniyakan kita kagabi... Na-mimis din kasi kita eh!

-I am so tired and pretty, I fell like I'm going to be sick. Nagbabadya ata ang sipon at headache that might lead to flu... Waaaahhh! Ayoko pero parang gusto ko na rin! Hehe. Hindi ko pa nagagamit ang SL ko, in fairness... Lord, Kayo na ang bahala.

-I am a li'l bit annoyed, our online letter tool is still unavailable at wala pang notice kung kelan sya maayos. Sobrang mano-mano kami gumawa ng letter for the past few days, super prone to mistake and it's eating so much time and whew, affecting our productivity. Good thing people are there to pray with me and for me(I know you know who you are!), they remind me of God's soveriegnty kahit ganito ang estado namin sa office. Salamat sa inyong lahat, sa mga encouragement and all!

-I am inspired, falling inlove with HIM more and more! I am thankful how the inspiration He has been giving me is so evident (that is according to majority of people I'm with most of the time) in my countenance. Hehe. Blooming daw oh? Wahaha... At sa aking vitamins, you just don't know how much I appreciate you and thank the Lord for you.

-I am excited, July 25, Aug 1, and Aug 19-25 vacation leave! I just can't wait! Two fridays akong naka-leave two weeks from now. Planning and thiking of going out on a date and then will be seeing Chris Tomlin and Louie Giglio sa Ultra! Then here SG trip na. Waaaahhh! I'm just so excited!

-I am missing you, 4 weeks pa ata bago ka bumalik from the States. This is the first time na nawala ka ng super tagal (since we started our discipleship last year). And everytime I remember that you are not here, medyo nalulungkot ako. Para akong batang iniwan ng nanay! Hehe. But anyway, I'm looking forward to see you again first week of Aug! And yeah, I just can't wait because I am sooo missing you!

-I am thankful, the Lord is ever faithful and so good to have provided for our everyday needs. Despite of the ongoing pagtaas ng mga bilihin, nakaka-survive pa rin kami. At kahit na medyo nakaka-worry talaga ang mga pagbabadya pang pag-taas ng pamasahe, He never fail to give me peace and calm the "about to" rage storm in me. So again, thank You my God! My great provider...

And the halo-halo moment goes on... Makadaan nga ng chowking later! Hehe! :D