82 days to go...

I'm excited! My countdown begins...

In exactly 82 days from today, I'll be flying off with my discipler to attend IDMC 2008 in Singapore...

( check out http://www.idmc.org.sg/idmc_2008.htm )

I would like to say "THANK YOU AND I HUG YOU" for all those friends I partnered in praying for this. Confirm na na makaka-sama ako kasi I have booked my plane tickets and registered delagate na ako! Praise the Lord for that! So ayun na nga, salamat sa inyong lahat... Hindi ko na kayo maiisa-isa kasi alam ko naman na kilala nyo ang mga sarili nyo. Si Lord na ang bahala sa inyo... Please continue to Pray for us (ni T. Carol); provision, safety and preparation of our hearts and minds sa conference...

I was over-browisng the ineternet (system downtime kasi kami eh kaya petiks, hehe!) earlier at ilan lang eto sa mga images na kinuha ko, mga "what to look forward" ko...

The Conference


The location, from Google Earth, hehe!


Hopefully, ma-capture ko din 'tong moment na ito...

Ayun lang, excited talaga ako!

Amen and Amen!

There are lot of times I find myself falling on my knees and saying: IT IS ONLY BY HIS GRACE TALAGA...

And I can only say AMEN and AMEN to this song...

"Time measured out my days
Life carried me along
In my soul I yearned to follow God
But knew Id never be so strong
I looked hard at this world
To learn how heaven could be gained
Just to end where I began
Where human effort is all in vain

Chorus
Were it not for grace
I can tell you where Id be
Wandering down some pointless road to nowhere
With my salvation up to me
I know how that would go
The battles I would face
Forever running but losing this race
Were it not for grace

So here is all my praise
Expressed with all my heart
Offered to the Friend who took my place
And ran a course I could not start
And when He saw in full
Just how much His would cost
He still went the final mile between me and heaven
So I would not be lost

Repeat Chorus

Forever running but losing this race
Were it not for grace"

disoriented

in other words-- windang!

As in na-wiwindang pa ako (particularly my bio-clock) sa sched ko, effective nung lunes pang-3pm to 12am na kami... at hanep! mas inaantok ako... hehehe, pagdating ng mga 8pm onwards parang gusto ko nang umuwi... pero PTL! ang sarap ng tulog ko ha, from 1am to 9am (for the past few days, hehe!) feeling normal na tao ako! nakakatulog na ako ng madilim pa ang langit. nyehehe!

although katakot lang yung going home hours ko... paki-include po ako sa prayers ha? gising pa naman ang mga tao sa mandaluyong pag-umuuwi ako at mabilis naman ang byahe pero ayun nga... katakot!

only by His grace lang...

haaaayyyness!

*wink-wink*

Constantly

You're constantly on my mind...

It's just amazing how the "DEAL" is not yet over but God is teaching and has taught me one greatest lesson-- to pray for you more and more each day and to focus on HIM more and more, instead of me focusing on myself and you...

I made it clear to myself that I will loosen my grip on you. And remind myself of that words from Paul-- "So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but ONLY GOD, WHO MAKES THINGS GROW.” always...

It is not that painful like it was the first time although thoughts (well, some thoughts about you) still make me cry from time to time, and indeed it is only with God's grace that I am able to understand and have peace despite the fact that I have (feeling ko lang ha! hehe) somewhat lost you...

Hehe! Ang arte ko noh...???!!!

I just want to tell you-- I love you... Alam ko naman na alam mo na yun! At sasabihin ko ulit sa'yo, HIS love is greater! At ayun na nga, you are constantly on my mind, in my prayers...

Until then!

the art of letting go

(crap, ang arte!)

I just had to stop doing my routes... I'm so sad because of this news I just learned... And I just want to cry...

An email from my mentor:

"subject: Thank you
sent: 05/01/2008 03:33 AM

Hi everyone!

Today is my last day with Chase. Tomorrow, I venture off into becoming a professional teacher for children.

You may not have realized it, but you all have paved this path for me...and I want to let all of you know how grateful I am to have known you. Finally...... I know what my purpose in life is! You all pointed me to the right direction.

It had been a great experience and a pleasure to have worked with you all!

keep in touch, k? =)"

And aaaarrrrgggghhh! I knew that this was coming... They told me about this since last year, although the original date was June 2008. And so eto, iba tlga pag it's happening na, eto na yun! Reality men...

Shocks, gusto ko lang umiyak! As in... Waaahhhh! I will miss you... naman!

Basta, may HIS will be done in your life...

Aaarrggg! the art of letting go of people coming into your life and eventually leaving.... When you thought you've mastered it... Ay hindi pala! ='(