My 2nd Week on Rehab

Yes, you read it right-- I am on rehab! Ü

After going in circles with numbers of physicians sa ER, who then referred me to a Neurologist, then ENT and then Orthopedic and then sa Rehab...

Haaay... I am now under going some physical therapy and rehabilitation sa Medical City. Nag-start ako last week. My doctor said session will be three times a week for two weeks, if may improvement good, if wala he'll figure out what to do next, next level treatment kumbaga. At eto na nga ang 2nd week ko. I had my 4th session early this morning.

Nakakapagod, at super napupuyat ako kasi morning ang session ko every Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays at galing ako sa trabaho! Waaah!

Kinakabitan ako ng pang-kuryente (tense daw tawag dun) with hot pack sa may neck-shoulder-back area, tapos inu-ultra sound at ni-le-laser din ako, tapos tinuruan ako ng mga exercises and stretchings galore, tapos mega ride sa elliptical trim line thingy for 15mins na walang pahingahan, at finally, ang pinaka-masakit na muntik pang magcause ng lock jaw-- ang traction (nakahiga ako habang may naka-suot na halter sa ulo ko to support my chin and nape habang yung machine na nag-we-weigh ng 9kgs hahatak-hatakin ako for 20mins). Sana nga may picture ako kasi hindi ko rin alam at nakikita kung ano mga pinag-gagagawa sa akin dun! Kaso wala, bawal pumasok ang hindi pasyente sa PT area eh...

Ni-recommend lahat yan ng doktor dahil sa diagnosis nyang - Myofascial Pain Syndrome (MPS). Na nag-start, or mas tama palang sabihin na "bumalik at lumala" late last year. When the pain triggers, at pag super sakit madalas it radiates in my head at nag-cau-cause ng tension head ache. Bukod pa yung bigla-bigla na lang may pipintig sa batok ko at matitigilan na lang ako sa sakit. As in, it gave me so much pain and irritation. Naapektuhan din ako sa work ko, sa pag-relate with people, ang aking temper, ang pagtulog, pagbagsak ng weight ko (well somehow gusto ko rin nun! hehe), at ang pagkawalang gana na gumalaw, and so on...

I do pray that with the PT Sessions/Rehab, gagaling na ako. I had enough in taking pain killers and muscle relaxant that doesn’t give me anything but temporal relief at malay ko pa kung anong residue ang iniiwan sa katawan ko nung mga gamot na yun. Ang mamahal pa nila! Haaayy...

Do join me in prayers will you? I don't think I'm "sick" naman kahit na marami talagang bumabati na bumabagsak daw ang katawan ko at namamayat daw ako and all, and at times I really feel so weak, kailangan ko lang talaga bumawi and make things right-- maling pwesto pagkaharap ang computer sa office, biglaang pagbangon pagka-gising (pati pala yun may "right way"), discipline sa excercise at rest...

This might surprise some of you-- kasi yung mga tao sa growth group namin nagulat. Pero promise, hindi naman siguro life threatening ito.
Or pwede rin? Hehe. I don't know...

Paki-pray po:
- na wala nang "next level" treatment/medication after the two weeks session.
- na gumaling ako totally at ma-maintain ko na hindi na bumalik.
- na maging careful and disciplined ako.
- strength to still go to work kahit puyat.

And thank and praise God with me:
- kay John, na kasama ko at nag-aantay sa akin for 2hours, at puyat na puyat din sya.
- kay Doc Rafanan at sa mga therapist ko: Tine and Leda.
- sa employer ko sa health card (Intellicare) na covered lahat ng ginagawa sa akin sa PT/Rehab.
- sa grace in God at faithfulness Nya.

Salamat ng maraming-marami! Ü

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." -2 Corinthians 12:9

Praise before Victory

"You ought to rejoice when God asks you to proceed in the work of His kingdom because you know the victory is already secured. Don't focus on the problems and failure of others. Focus on God's assurance of victory. If you have trouble praising God with a song in your heart as you serve Him, it may be that your focus is not on God, but on your circumstances."

-Experiencing God
Daily Devotionals
by Henry and Richard Blackaby

Jesus, Take the Wheel

by Carrie Underwood

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
she was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on

Ooh, Jesus take the wheel
Ooh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Ooh, take it, take it from me
Ooh ooh wah ah ooh ooh ooh

Speechless

I can't believe that I read what I just read (exchanging e-mail with friends now).

I am speechless. Really.

I do not know what to say, but I know I have to say something.

At nagdali-dali tuloy akong basahin ang isa sa mga article ni kuya kevin...

Ang hindi ko lang alam, how do I minister to him without being obnoxious or something na ganun ang dating.

???

Whew!

Grabe kasi talaga ang spiritual battle kaya kailangan covered talaga ng "Full armor" all the time at maging sobra, as in to the highest level na pag-keep in mind ng WORD of God.

Letter ni Paul ang binabasa at pinag-aaralan ko... Share ko na rin!

Living as Children of Light

"So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, with a continual lust for more.

You, however, did not come to know Christ that way. Surely you heard of him and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. "In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you." - Ephesians 4:17-32

By the way, maraming-maraming salamat sa lahat ng tinext ko na nag-pray at patuloy na nagpe-pray for me and with me. Pati na rin sa mga hindi ko na-text pero nakaka-alala sa akin sa panalangin. Ü

And most of all-- Thank You Jesus!

An open letter for my lovedone

You don't know how much I miss you...
Or I guess you do! Hehe...

I appreciate you travelling every weekend from Baguio to Mandaluyong, really, I do! Although sometime I hate it when you do kasi sobra ka lang napapagod pero ayoko rin naman na hindi because we won't get to see you and be with you. I know and can feel how torn you are between the demands of your husband and your children yet I do not understand how you are able to manage it. I guess, only by God's grace.

I am also longing for that day that we will all be together, as one... One in serving the Lord, serving one another and all!

I am sorry to have bothered you with my text messages last week (and also this week, hehe). But thank you, thank you so much for being the best Mom ever. You are not perfect, and as you have said you still have your misgivings, but I won't ask for anyone else. I am grateful to have you.

I wish you are here... I just miss you!

(Nagp-PMS ata ako! Hahaha!)

I'm in great pain...

But I thank God for getting me off/out of my comfort zone to take me where He wants me to be... For allowing me to experience a higher, deeper level of faith, trust, obedience and love in Him.

Allow me to quote what my devo said last week--
"If you are in a situation or lifestyle where you are perfectly capable of handling everything, you have stopped growing in your understanding of God. God's desire is to take you where you are to where He wants you to be. You will always be one step of obedience away from the next truth God wants you to learn about Him...

Perhaps you need to trust God to a degree you never have before..."

And right now, my mind keeps shouting this--
"I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?" -Jeremiah 32:27

Do pray for me!

Cheesy mode!

"Ikaw lamang ang tangi kong iniisip
Ang lagi kong panaginip
Tayong dal'wa ay laging nagmamahalan

Pangarap ko na kailanma'y 'di maglaho
Ang pag-ibig kong ito
'Pagkat hinding-hindi ko makakayang mawalay sa 'yo

Ikaw lamang ang buhay ko
Sana nama'y pakinggan mo
Ang puso ko na mayroong sinasabi

Ikaw lamang ang tangi kong minamahal
Ang lagi kong dinarasal
Sana'y habang buhay tayong magkasama

Ang puso ko'y ibibigay lamang sa 'yo
Ito ang aking pangako mula ngayon
Hanggang magpakailan pa man

Ikaw lamang

Ikaw lamang ang buhay ko
Sana nama'y pakinggan mo
Ang puso ko na mayroong sinasabi

Ikaw lamang..."

Ine-expect ko na na mag-re-react na naman si JV (hahaha!) pero queber... Oo, ang cheesy talaga, pero pina-iiyak at pina-me-melt ako ng song na ito (may ganon?!)... For my beloved... Ü