the desire of my heart...

Is to be where YOU are...

"I just want to be where You are
Dwelling daily in Your presence
I don't want to worship from afar
Draw me near to where You are
I just want to be where You are
In Your dewlling place forever
Take me to the place where You are
I just want to be with You

I want to be where You are
Dwelling in Your presence
Feasting at Your table
Surrounded by your glory
In Your presence
That's where I always want to be
I just want to be
I just want to be with YOU..."

Aaawww...

I would like to thank everyone na naka-alala...

Sa mga nag-text, nag-email, nagleave ng comment sa multiply, mga naka-salubong ko, sa mga nag-birthday-HUG, sa mga nag-leave ng off line msge sa YM, sa movie-dinner-coffee bean-date, at sa lahat-lahat... sa mga naka-alala pero hindi nakabati (kilala ko kayo!) thank you po!

as in SUPER THANK YOU! and as I have said, you are such a blessing to me, all of you! You are an affirmation that my Lord and my God is indeed ever faithful!

I wish to say more... pero wala na akong masabi... salamat, salamat talaga!

The last email greeting I just got now:





Katuwa... salamat dear! :D

IEX

For back up and documentation purposes lang.

Hindi naman po ako excited...

Uhm, super excited lang!!! Wahaha!!!

A screen capture of my bonggang VL... At long last! Thank You Lord!


To my fellow Research Analysts... I will see you Aug 26th! Hehe! Salamat kay Isczie for all the tips! Enjoy your routes... Wahaha! :D

And for my prayer partners... alam nyo na yung mga prayer items ko for this trip. Please continue in praying for them, for her, and all! I will keep you posted... Super thanks!

During the night the mystery was revealed to Daniel in a vision. Then Daniel praised the God of heaven and said: "Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever; wisdom and power are his. He changes times and seasons; he sets up kings and deposes them. He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to the discerning. He reveals deep and hidden things; he knows what lies in darkness, and light dwells with him. I thank and praise you, O God of my fathers: You have given me wisdom and power, you have made known to me what we asked of you, you have made known to us the dream of the king." -Daniel 2:19-23

Surprising and humiliating

I received another email from our quality assurance specialist and I got another failed audit. This is my third for this month. And for the record (not to boast or anything) I am not used to receiving such email and I am very particular with my stats...

Last week, for two consecutive days I actually got two. I was so pissed off then and was so mad at myself (the "cry baby" post is all about that bad news) but today is different...

Have you ever felt like "GUSTO KONG MA-BADTRIP PERO DI KO MAGAWA!?" I feel like ganun right now... I mean, for me it is something good... After really praying about it... Before I left for work kasi today I ask God to prepare me if ever I will receive another failed audit... Of which I did receive nga today but then I am praising Him right now because He answered my prayer! Hindi na ako yung Rajsh last week (mga officemate ko lang nakakita nun at hindi nakakatuwa...) na super, aaarrggh! I don't even want to remeber that! Hahaha!

Romans 8:28 is so true... And I will cling and hold to His faithfulness lang!

Allow me also to share some thoughts from the book I'm currently reading (Passion and Purity by Elisabeth Elliot). Hindi lang pang-love life yung mga insights nya at super nakakatuwa...

She said (and I totally agree):

'When there is real weakness, especially of the kind that surprises and humiliates us, it is our opportunity to learn what Paul had to learn through his "thorn": the grace of God is all we need, for "...power comes to its full strength in weakness..."'

I was reading that chapter last night before I went to sleep and it comforted me... Natutuwa lang ako! I am so happy rin on how the Lord is calming the storm in me... Totoo yung status message / blog entry title ng isang friend na "Only my Maker can calm me down". Wala lang... kakatuwa!

And it is my prayer that when the day comes that I will see His purpose why He allowed this to happen, I will go on and praise Him more...

Ang ganda ng year-to-date stats ko at for sure hihigitin ako ng failed audits na ito pero for sure din He can turn around ang mga pangit na bagay into something beautiful and something that will bring glory to His name! Will be waiting upon Him lang...

Praise Him forever!

"Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name...

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name..."

cry baby?

Right now, I just want to cry.
And hide my face.
I am so mad at myself.
So disappointed...

But then my situation does not change the fact that
He is faithful,
He is sovereign,
and that in ALL THINGS He works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.

Even if right now I do not understand why...
Why oh why?

The LORD Speaks

Then the LORD answered Job out of the storm. He said:
"Who is this that darkens my counsel
with words without knowledge?

Brace yourself like a man;
I will question you,
and you shall answer me.

"Where were you when I laid the earth's foundation?
Tell me, if you understand.

Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know!
Who stretched a measuring line across it?

On what were its footings set,
or who laid its cornerstone-

while the morning stars sang together
and all the angels shouted for joy?

"Who shut up the sea behind doors
when it burst forth from the womb,

when I made the clouds its garment
and wrapped it in thick darkness,

when I fixed limits for it
and set its doors and bars in place,

when I said, 'This far you may come and no farther;
here is where your proud waves halt'?

"Have you ever given orders to the morning,
or shown the dawn its place,

that it might take the earth by the edges
and shake the wicked out of it?

The earth takes shape like clay under a seal;
its features stand out like those of a garment.

The wicked are denied their light,
and their upraised arm is broken.

"Have you journeyed to the springs of the sea
or walked in the recesses of the deep?

Have the gates of death been shown to you?
Have you seen the gates of the shadow of death?

Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth?
Tell me, if you know all this.

"What is the way to the abode of light?
And where does darkness reside?

Can you take them to their places?
Do you know the paths to their dwellings?

Surely you know, for you were already born!
You have lived so many years!

"Have you entered the storehouses of the snow
or seen the storehouses of the hail,

which I reserve for times of trouble,
for days of war and battle?

What is the way to the place where the lightning is dispersed,
or the place where the east winds are scattered over the earth?

Who cuts a channel for the torrents of rain,
and a path for the thunderstorm,

to water a land where no man lives,
a desert with no one in it,

to satisfy a desolate wasteland
and make it sprout with grass?

Does the rain have a father?
Who fathers the drops of dew?

From whose womb comes the ice?
Who gives birth to the frost from the heavens

when the waters become hard as stone,
when the surface of the deep is frozen?

"Can you bind the beautiful Pleiades?
Can you loose the cords of Orion?

Can you bring forth the constellations in their seasons
or lead out the Bear with its cubs?

Do you know the laws of the heavens?
Can you set up God's dominion over the earth?

"Can you raise your voice to the clouds
and cover yourself with a flood of water?

Do you send the lightning bolts on their way?
Do they report to you, 'Here we are'?

Who endowed the heart with wisdom
or gave understanding to the mind?

Who has the wisdom to count the clouds?
Who can tip over the water jars of the heavens

when the dust becomes hard
and the clods of earth stick together?

"Do you hunt the prey for the lioness
and satisfy the hunger of the lions

when they crouch in their dens
or lie in wait in a thicket?

Who provides food for the raven
when its young cry out to God
and wander about for lack of food?

...Rebel sigh

If you love someone, there are many things you will do for that person because you love him--not because it's what you'd prefer if love did not enter the picture. The fact is, love has entered the picture. Therefore, in your heart, you can be very honest when you tell him you really prefer to do what He wants, because, more than your own pleasure, you want His. When obedience to God contradicts what I think will give me pleasure, let me ask myself if I love Him. If I say yes to that question, can't I say yes to pleasing Him? Can't I say yes even if it means a sacrifice? A little quiet reflection will remind me that yes to God always leads in the end to joy. We can absolutely bank on that.

-an excerpt from the book
"Passion and Purity"
by Elisabeth Elliot

32:26

(Disclaimer: I am sorry for being me, but thank you for being patient... the Lord is not finish with me yet eh!)


Genesis 32:26 says--Then the man said, "Let me go, for it is daybreak."
But Jacob replied, "I will not let you go unless you bless me."

I was wrestling with God few days ago. Over a major thing... I really don't know why every time it's Sunday He would speak and convict me and I would end up crying... Just crying, and would find myself wrestling with HIM!

The wrestling moment happened that same night. I was actually praying the whole day, asking HIM for wisdom and enlightenment.

I am just so burdened.
I am so affected.
I don't want to see them (for now).
I can't get over it and can't let it go.
I want to run, as in run lang forever... As if pwede?

Well, indeed the Lord is faithful! He is ever faithful... The "blessing" came the same night (or may I say 'morning' cause that was around 4am na! hehe).

I was again left in awe of HIM when He answered:

"You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. This is my command: Love each other." -John 15:16-17

I was like, "Okay Lord, I think I heard that from our Servant Leadership class earlier... Whew!"

'Was praying more and more and finally another one big blow from the Lord:

"Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it." -Luke 11:28

I have no where to go, had no other choice but to say-- YES, LORD! And remembered, hindi nga pala pwede yung "No, Lord!" Waaaahhh!

And so... I am blessed!

And He is faithful... Forever, He is faithful!

I will rest and hold on to that lang...