I received a bad news early this morning. It was few hours pa after nung mag-sink in sa akin na bad news pa la yun! Hehe... I'm on Performance Improvement Plan (PIP) for the next 30 days due to the Quality Scores last month, I only got 83.33% when I'm supposed to have met the target goal of 85%.
It was okay for me kasi I know that I got too relaxed with my stats at hindi tlga ako yung tipo na masyadong conscious. But then, when my team mate (na na-PIP rin) told me na we would not qualify for monthly incentive... ayun na nga, shocks! I have a tuition fee na kailangang pondohan! I texted my mom, sabi ko sa kanya for sure the normal salary I'm getting will decrease and I might be short with my monthly budget!
But the Lord is really good! He started showing His goodness to me through Mama when she replied:
"That's the price of getting involved in ministry. That's the time din to see how God is able to provide for ALL your needs. Read Isaiah 43:1-11 He promised to be there kahit ano pa daanan mo."
And so Isaiah 43 says...
"1 But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
3 For I am the LORD, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I give Egypt for your ransom,
Cush [a] and Seba in your stead.
4 Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
and because I love you,
I will give men in exchange for you,
and people in exchange for your life.
5 Do not be afraid, for I am with you;
I will bring your children from the east
and gather you from the west.
6 I will say to the north, 'Give them up!'
and to the south, 'Do not hold them back.'
Bring my sons from afar
and my daughters from the ends of the earth-
7 everyone who is called by my name,
whom I created for my glory,
whom I formed and made."
8 Lead out those who have eyes but are blind,
who have ears but are deaf.
9 All the nations gather together
and the peoples assemble.
Which of them foretold this
and proclaimed to us the former things?
Let them bring in their witnesses to prove they were right,
so that others may hear and say, "It is true."
10 "You are my witnesses," declares the LORD,
"and my servant whom I have chosen,
so that you may know and believe me
and understand that I am he.
Before me no god was formed,
nor will there be one after me.
11 I, even I, am the LORD,
and apart from me there is no savior."
And when I get home, I just prayed... and cried! I was doing my devotion when I received a call from P. Chris, to remind me of something, tapos ewan ko paano nya na-sense, but I think, it was God who gave him that sense or gut-feel, when he asked me "oh bakit parang malungkot ka?" I just told him I'm doing my devotion nga.
After the call from P. chris, I browsed through my notes, sa journal ko and I saw this line "Whatever you are going through right now, the Lord knows it!" a note from Pstr. Lito last friday during the Crossover Leader's Fellowship. And then it was followed by a passage from 1 Timothy 6:12:
"Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses."
My baby Mich asked me to pray for her last night, for her shift, at sa benta nya to be able to maintain her stats... The morning came and it ended up na hindi nya na-meet yung quota for number of sales. But then I am blessed by how she responded to it. I shared to her my bad news and also ask her to pray for me eto naman yung reply nya- "We are being tested tlaga...I'll pray that God will continue to bestow blessings upon u..."
Another manifestation from Mommy Bibeth, when she texted me- "..are you alright now? I'm praying for you, take care. Mwah!" without me even telling her about the bad news... It was after that text when I shared to her my burden.
And then I went to sleep na...
I'm am taking calls (sa office na 'to around 12am) when I felt the urge to check if I have a message in my phone, and yes there was! Eto yung pinaka-nagpaiyak tlga sa akin eh.. the message goes like this- "I dont know what's happening with you right now, don't know how all your work is going, but God brought you to my mind right now and I thought O'd pray for you. Lean on Christ always. Stay strong in the lord. You're in my prayers. -Mark". Nung una akala ko kung sino, medyo bago ko palang kasi syang na-isave sa phonebook ko, kaya nung mag-first-15min break ako I read the message again, at naiyak talga ako!
Haha, eto na naman... grabeng nakakatuwa bumawi si God sa akin through those people... I fell so blessed despite of that bad news, I mean ang bilis bumawi ni God kahit nalulungkot ako ngayon He brought people around me to make me feel na He knows nga what I'm going through... And so as the song goes, I will be STILL and know you are God...
I will fight the good fight to bring glory to His name. Amazing God talga Sya! (--,)