Happy birthday, my God's best!

My forever crush. My forever love, my John-lord! ♥

I am just thankful right now for how the Lord has been very faithful to my dear husband. And I'm looking forward for more years of God's faithfulness to him, kasi 'matic, kadamay ako kahit hindi naman ako deserving. Grabe, nakakabless si Lord!

Cheers!

I'm very happy that before he left for work kanina, he looked very happy.  I'm also happy because of the flood outside na hindi nakapagpa-pasok sa kanya sa opisina ng maaga, we got to have a birthday salubong toast! Yay! :)

I've been celebrating with him his birthday for the seven years now and each year, it gets harder and harder to think of a gimmick to surprise him! Hahaha! And so as I look back sa mga nakaraang taon, these pictures just made me smile.

Note: not all are from his past birthday though.

Throwback Thursday for my husband's birthday!

Wedding nila P.Eug and Osie nito

July 24, 2010 - surprise birthday bash for John. Here with us is our mentor, ninong and the one who officiated our wedding, Rev. Raul Caguin!

Baguio Trip in 2011. My fave picture with him for that trip. Haha!

Kunwari pre-nup shoot daw namin nito! Hahaha!

July 23, 2011 at 12:00am, in his office

He was surprised! ♥

Happy birthday again my love!

♫ I wanna love you, forever I do.

I wanna spend all of my days with you.

I'll carry your burdens and be the wind at your back.

I wanna spend my forever - forever like that. ♪

Been singing this to Him

Your steadfast love extends to the heavens
Your faithfulness it reaches to the clouds
Your righteousness is like majestic mountains
And your wisdom like the depths of the seaAnd you come to me...

Filling my heart with your loving kindness
I find my peace in the shadow of your wings
I eat my fill from the abundance of your household
And I drink from the streams of rejoicing

You are my King...

"Your Steadfast Love" by Don Moen

A song of love to You....

♫ Because of who You are
I will lift my hands
I will lift my heart
and sing a song of love to You

Because of who You are
I offer You my life
surrendering my all,
a living sacrifice to You

Because of who You are
everything You are...

I Give You all the glory,

I give You all the praise

I pledge to You each moment

for the length of all my days

My Rock and my Redeemer

May Savior and my Friend

 

Oh I will ever praise You

Yes, I will ever praise You

Yes, I will ever praise You Lord

Because of who You are...♪

♫ Sing! ♪

♫ Sing, sing unto the Lord,
open up your heart,
make a joyful noise in the sanctuary.

Sing, sing unto the Lord,
lavish Him with love,
let the praises ring in the sanctuary.

Sing, sing unto the Lord,
open up your heart,
make a joyful noise in the sanctuary.

Sing, sing unto the Lord,
lavish Him with love,
let the praises ring in the sanctuary,
sing, sing...

Gotta open up your mouth and give Him praise,
open up your heart and give Him praise.
Lift up holy hands unashamed in the sanctuary.

Gotta open up your mouth and give Him praise,
open up your heart and give Him praise.
Lift up holy hands unashamed, sing, sing, sing! ♪

I’ll sing to You Lord

♫ You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I’ll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I’m carried in everlasting arms
You’ll never let me go
Through it all... ♪

One song I listened to as I wake up today... very Encouraging...

Good morning all!

The Lord is good and His love endures forever!

To my best friend... ♥

♫ I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love in every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday♪

Wala lang, that song is playing and I automatically thought of you... Hehe! Miss you! Love you! Mwuah! ♥

How do you leave it in a drawer?

It's been two consecutive days since this song (lyrics below) has been played in the office and I could'nt help but be sad...

I first heard this song from a friend's walkman way back in college and since then the song always reminds me of him. I told him in an email I sent him in October that:

Pinapatugtog yang song na yan ngayon dito… at ewan ko ba, ikaw ang naaala ko sa song na yan! :)

Kasi my recollection of that song was your cassette tape. :) Hehehe! nothing senti! LOL

Ewan ko ba tlga friend, bakit di ko makalimutan yun. As in, sobrang random moment nun as in wala lang naman diba? hehehe. katuwa diba? :)

And now, hindi na nakakatuwa when it reminds me of him... I still don't know what happened and I'm still waiting for his kwento. And I'm praying for him to get throught his heart ache.

I'm also praying that the Lord will enlighten him and lead him to Him and find his true love in the Lord Jesus Christ that he may have a changed heart that is after God's own heart, after what God really designed for him...

This one is for you Mark. You know I'm just here... Praying for you!

"Art of Letting Go"

Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more?
How do you leave it in a drawer?

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade
What can I do?
But try to make it through
the pain of one more day
Without you

Where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I'm learning, only learning,
Learning the art of letting go....

More than wonderful

This was sung yesterday during the installation service of our new GCF Senior Pastor (Dr. Larry Pabiona) and my heart was really pouring out because this song is just so pregnant with truth about Him...

Let me share with you the lyrics:

Artist: Sandi Patti
He promised us that He would be a counselor
A Mighty God and the Prince of Peace
He promised us that He would be a Father
And that He would love us with a love that would not cease.

Well, I tried Him and I found His promises are true
He’s everything He said that He would be.
The finest words I know could not begin to tell
Just what Jesus really means to me.

For He’s more wonderful than my mind can conceive
He’s more wonderful than my heart can believe
He goes beyond my highest hopes and fondest dreams.
He’s everything that my soul ever longed for
Everything He’s promised and so much more
More than amazing, more than marvelous
More than miraculous could ever be
He’s more than wonderful, that’s what Jesus is to me.

I stand amazed when I think that the King of glory
Should come to dwell within the heart of man
I marvel just to know He really loves me
When I think of who He is, and who I am.

For He’s more wonderful than my mind can conceive
He’s more wonderful than my heart can believe
He goes beyond my highest hopes and fondest dreams.
He’s everything that my soul ever longed for
Everything He’s promised and so much more
More than amazing, more than marvelous,
More than miraculous could ever be
He’s more than wonderful, that’s what Jesus is to me.

His love is pure...

A song by Kari Jobe that I really like and I'm singing it in my heart right now...

♪ Your love is pure Your love is precious Your love is all I need

Your love is pure Your love is precious Your love is all I need

Your love surrounds me Your love astounds me Your love is everything.

I run to You my heart is weak I cling to You Your all I see

It’s my heart’s desire to be close to you ‘cause here in Your arms I’ll find my strength.

Your love is pure Your love is precious Your love is all I need

Your love surrounds me Your love astounds me Your love is everything.

I run to You my heart is weak I cling to You Your all I see

It’s my heart’s desire to be close to You cause here in Your arms I’ll find my strength ♪

Who can satisfy?

This was an old (and cherished) text message from my Beloved John:

"God is indeed a trinity.  Because in the one Godhead there exists in eternity a community in loving relationship.  Since we are created according to His likeness, we long for relationship as well.  I'm thanful that He gave you to me so I can enjoy with you a lifetime of loving relationship."

Amen to that!

But this was what the Lord reminded me today: No human relationship will ever satisfy the deepest longing of my heart and soul. And so He played this song for me:

♪ Who can satisfy my soul like you

Who on earth can comfort

And love me like You do

Who could ever be more faithful true

Who can satisfy, who can satisfy like you

There is a fountain Who is a King

Victorious warrior and Lord of everything

My rock my shelter my very own

Blessed Redeemer Who reigns upon the throne...♪

I love You, Lord! Thank You!

Hugged by the Lord

I was crying when I woke up early morning, yesterday, I texted John about it so he could pray with me and then went on with having my quiet time...

I was listening to the song "Your Grace Still Amazes me" and really weeping and pouring out my heart to Him until He spoke, encouraged and "hugged" me through His words:

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons:

"My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline,

and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,

because the Lord disciplines those he loves,

and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son."

Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees. "Make level paths for your feet," so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed.

-Hebrews 12:1-13

** Please pray for me and with me... **

Upuan

I've been hearing this song over the past months pero kaninang umaga ko lang talaga pinakinggan yung sinasabi ng artist. And it's interesting... Halos one decade ba naman syang nakaupo eh. Hehe. =D

Anyway, gusto ko lang naman i-share...

Gloc-9 - Upuan lyrics

(Chant)

Kayo po na naka upo, 
Subukan nyo namang tumayo
At baka matanaw, at baka matanaw na nyo
Ang tunay na kalagayan ko

Ganito kasi yan eh... 

Verse 1:

Tao po, nandyan po ba kayo sa loob ng
Malaking bahay at malawak na bakuran
Mataas na pader pinapaligiran
At naka pilang mga mamahaling sasakyan
Mga bantay na laging bulong ng bulong
Wala namang kasal pero marami ang naka barong
Lumakas man ang ulan ay walang butas ang bubong
Mga plato't kutsara na hindi kilala ang tutong
At ang kanin ay simputi ng gatas na nasa kahon
At kahit na hindi pasko sa lamesa ay may hamon
Ang sarap sigurong manirahan sa bahay na ganyan
Sabi pa nila ay dito mo rin matatagpuan
Ang tao na nagmamay-ari ng isang upuan
Na pag may pagkakatao'y pinag-aagawan
Kaya naman hindi niya pinakakawalan
Kung makikita ko lamang siya ay aking sisigawan

Chorus:

Kayo po na naka upo, 
Subukan nyo namang tumayo, 
At baka matanaw, at baka matanaw na nyo
Ang tunay na kalagayan ko

Verse 2:

Mawalang galang na po
Sa taong naka upo, 
Alam niyo bang pantakal ng bigas namin ay di puno
Ang ding-ding ng bahay namin ay pinagtagpi-tagping yero
Sa gabi ay sobrang init na tumutunaw ng yelo
Na di kayang bilhin upang ilagay sa inumin
Pinakulong tubig sa lumang takuring uling-uling
Gamit lang panggatong na inanod lamang sa istero
Na nagsisilbing kusina sa umaga'y aming banyo
Ang aking inay na may kayamanan isang kaldero
Na nagagamit lang pag ang aking ama ay sumweldo
Pero kulang na kulang parin, 
Ulam na tuyo't asin
Ang singkwenta pesos sa maghapo'y pagkakasyahin
Di ko alam kung talagang maraming harang
O mataas lang ang bakod
O nagbubulag-bulagan lamang po kayo
Kahit sa dami ng pera niyo
Walang doktor na makapagpapalinaw ng mata niyo
Kaya... 

Wag kang masyadong halata
Bato-bato sa langit
Ang matamaa'y wag magalit
O bato-bato bato sa langit
Ang matamaan ay
Wag masyadong halata
Wag kang masyadong halata
Hehey, (Wag kang masyadong halata)
(Wag kang masyadong halata)

(Chant)



Lyrics | Gloc-9 lyrics - Upuan lyrics

At astig pala ang music video nya! Check it out here .

Focus, focus!

This happened to me, yesterday... Uhm, or shall I say-- it happens often:

"Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!". -Matthew 14:29-30

I let myself be distracted and irritated... As in, inaalis ko kasi talaga ang focus ko kay God kaya sumasablay ang attitude ko towards things...

.Sigh.

At ni hindi ako nakalapit sa Kanya sa kahihiyan ko (meaning di ako nakapag-devo kahapon because my heart was not right before Him) pero napaka-faithful pa rin Nya and reminded me of this before He allowed me to sleep:

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." -Matthew 6:33

At nag-contemplate lang ako sa words Nya na yun on my way to work. While singing this in my head (and playing it in my mp3):
In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand...

And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand...

Tumingin at nag-focus kasi ako sa earthly things at kaya nag-worry ako... na-neglect ko tuloy Sya... Kaya pagdating ko kagabi sa office, before I start working, I looked it up in biblegateway.com for a better/bigger picture of what He is trying to tell me...

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. -Matthew 6:25-34

So there, thank You, Lord!

And I'm so sorry for looking away... ='(

Thank You for saving me from drowning.

I need Your wisdom

I will be leading our group in our 12th Walk-d-Talk (James series study) lesson this coming Saturday, January 30, 2010.

Do pray for me, I have not finished the lesson yet.

Here's the assigned passage for me, James 2:14-19--

   
¹⁴ What does it profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him? ¹⁵ If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, ¹⁶ and one of you says to them, “Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit? ¹⁷ Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.


¹⁸ But someone will say, “You have faith, and I have works.” Show me your faith without your works, and I will show you my faith by my works. ¹⁹ You believe that there is one God. You do well. Even the demons believe—and tremble! (James 2:14-19, New King James Version)

"I am your servant
And I am listening
Speak to me Lord, speak to me
I need your wisdom
And truth and comfort
Speak to me Lord, speak to me

Speak to me
Speak to me
Through your word
Through your spirit
Speak your words of life
Speak to me
Speak to me
I am listening
I am waiting
Speak to me

I am your servant
And I am listening
Speak to me Lord, speak to me
My heart is silent
My soul is longing
Speak to me Lord, speak to me"

Status: Contemplating

I've been singing this song for almost two weeks now... I listen to it every night while I'm on my way to work and when I travel back home...

"I will give you all my worship
I will give you all my praise
You alone I long to worship
You alone are worthy of my praise

I will worship (I will worship)
With all of my heart (With all of my heart)
I will praise you (I will praise you)
With all of my strength (With all my strength)
I will seek you (I will seek you)
All of my days (All of my days)
I will follow (I will follow)
Follow all of your ways (All your ways)

I will give you all my worship
I will give you all my praise
You alone I long to worship
You alone are worthy of my praise

I will bow down (I will bow down)
Hail you as king (Hail you as king)
I will serve you (I will serve you)
I'll give you everything (I'll give you everything)
I will lift up (I will lift up)
My eyes to your throne (My eyes to your throne)
I will trust you (I will trust you)
I will trust you alone (Trust you alone)"

...and then last Monday night, nasa jeep ako when I pondered on "Lord, what does it really mean to give You ALL my worship?" Sa thought lang na yun ako nag-dwell during my short travel from my house (Mandaluyong) to my workplace (the Fort, Taguig).

When I went home, Tuesday morning... I found myself telling this to God (in my journal):

"I've been thinking since last night kung ano po ba talaga yung 'all my worship' at kung naibibigay ko ito sa Inyo... and the answer is 'no'... Many times I fail to follow You, many times I disappoint You, many times I go ahead of You, many times I displease You and disobey You... At maraami pang pagkukulang at pagkakamali...

Forgive me Lord for those times..."

What does it mean to give Him all my worship then-- OBEDIENCE. Having the RIGHT HEART before Him... Living the Christ-like life MOMENT BY MOMENT... At marami pang iba na patuloy na ipinapakita sa akin ng Panginoon...

And then He lead me to this:

"How can a young man keep his way pure? By living according to your word." -Psalm 119:9

So the journey goes on... He is dealing with me, that's for sure! ;-)

Prasie His name, His love endures forever...

Kahit ano pa ang mangyari...

Indeed, He gives and takes away!
But my heart will choose to say, Lord, blessed by Your name! Ü

Singing it over and over

...again and again!

I know I posted it here already pero gusto ko pa rin sya i-re-post. I want to be always reminded of HIS grace... His grace that is more than sufficient! Naiiyak, nahu-humble at nao-overwhelm ako sa message ng song...

My faithful Father, enduring Friend
Your tender mercy’s like a river with no end
It overwhelms me, covers my sin
Each time I come into Your presence
I stand in wonder once again

Your grace still amazes me
Your love is still a mystery
Each day I fall on my knees
Your grace still amazes me
‘Cause Your grace still amazes me

Oh, patient Saviour, You make me whole
You are the Author and the Healer of my soul
What can I give You, Lord, what can I say
I know there’s no way to repay You
Only to offer You my praise

It’s deeper, it’s wider
It’s stronger, it’s higher
It’s deeper it’s wider
It’s stronger, it’s higher
than anything my eyes can see

Minus the Chorus

(I don't agree with the Chorus kasi, but I sooo love the other parts/stanzas and also the instrumental... hehe... Soobrang cheesy!)

"What does your love mean to me
Its something I can't answer easily
Just like the air that I breathe
You fill me up inside, you give me all that I need
Like a bird flying high on a summers day
You're the wind that carries me away
To a place where you and i will always stay forever...

Longer than poets will rhyme
Girl my love will burn for you until the end of time
If I should die before tomorrow comes
I wont regret a single day, because I had your love
Must be somethin' in the way you say my name
It takes away my worries and my pain
Girl I know we'll make it through the rain together...

Like a river flows and a flower grows, my love for you will never fade...
Like the sun will rise in the morning sky you know that i am here to stay forever..."

The song reminds of God's love for me... More than anything else...

For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths of the grave. -Psalm 86:13

But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness. -Psalm 86:15

We love because he first loved us. -1 John 4:19

the LORD God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being. -Genesis 2:7

but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. -Isaiah 40:31

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. -Romans 8:38-39

Ayun... So amazing!

++ Got the photo from here.++

I'm so excited!

Indeed, indeed... I am!

LOL

I am excited for the Singles' Conference - LOVE MATTERS: More Than Just Romance that's on August 21-23. This is my 3rd year joining and also my 3rd year serving as one of the facilitators for small groups. Honored and privileged pa rin ako, syempre! This is the first time John will be joining and I'm so happy! Last year kasi wala pa syang leave credits. Hehe.

I am excited because August 21 is one special day for us ni John and yeah, we are still together! 11 months and counting... Thank You Lord Jesus!

I am excited for my birthday, as in! I have been thinking a lot about things I want to thank God for, as in sooobrang dami! Tapos another year na naman for me! Yehay! (Here's some old post from last year and last - last year bday celbration).

I am excited for our new series study in our growth group. I have entitled it "WALK THE TALK" based on the Book of James. The group's really looking forward to it, and sobrang nakaka-affirm yung prayer and fellowship namin last week (August 15) when I presented it to them that they all agreed na it's okay we go through it after our Gospel of John series. We will begin on August 29. Same time: 6pm and same place: GCF Ortigas Rm BM04.

Ayun lang... I am really, really, so excited! And thanking God for all the good things He has blessed me with...

"Every blessing You pour out I turn back to praise..."

HIS patience

The patience of God towards me...
Compared to my patience in HIM (in His timing and plans to unfold),
My patience towards others,
And my patience towards myself....

I met with my discipler Tuesday morning and pondered on that wonderful truth. At sobrang nakaka-bless tlaga si Lord! I could never thank Him enough... For His patience, loving kindness, mercy and grace...

"Bear in mind that our Lord's patience means salvation..."
2 Peter 3:15

Who compares to You?
Who set the stars in their place?
You who calmed the raging seas
That came crashing over me

Who compares to You?
You who bring the morning light
The hope of all the earth
Is rest assured in Your great love

You are magnificent, eternally
Wonderful, glorious
Jesus
No one ever will compare to You
Jesus