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Subject: wat time lunch nyo?

this morning i just realized how i miss you guys...

since nag-saturday shif kasi ako (at si mike) we never had the chance to go out, na nang tayong tatlo lang...

sigh...

sana pwde tyong mag-off set na lunch noh?

hehehe! kahit hindi na ako matulog...


" Be quick to listen, slow to speak & slow to become angry... "

Rajsh Sabio
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Scrabble in Stocking Feet

The Ache of Expecting--

"It's like taking a glass and filling it-- first with stones, and you pile them to the top, but there are empty spaces.
Then you try pebbles, and the fit is better, but still there are pockets where nothing goes.
But if you take water, and pour it in, you fill it completely--no empty spaces at all.
You're like that. You fit me. You're like water over stones."

An Excerpt Worthy of Posting

Here is an excerpt from Dr. Neil Anderson's "The Bondage Breaker"

"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life] will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? If anyone is ashamed of me and my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his Father's glory with the holy angels." Mark 8:34-38

BE FREE!

1. Deny Yourself- to deny yourself is to deny self-rule. Until we deny ourselves that which was never meant to be ours (the role of being god in our lives) we will never be at peace with ourselves or with God, and will never be free. When you deny yourself, you invite God to take the throne of your life, to occupy what is rightfully His, so that you may function as a person who is spiritually alive in Christ.

2. Pick up Your Cross Daily- not our own cross but Christ's cross. We are delivered because we died with Him. To pick up the cross daily means to acknowledge everyday that we belong to God. When we pick up the cross, we affirm that our identity is not based on our physical existence but in our relationship with God. Our life is in Christ, because He is our life (see Colossians 3:3-4).

3. Follow Christ- we are not designed to function independent of God. Only when we are dependent on Him and intent of following Christ are we compelled and free to prove that the will of God is good, acceptable and perfect.

4. Sacrifice the Lower Life to gain the Higher Life- if you want to save your natural life, you will lose it (see Mark 8:35).

5. Sacrifice Temporal to gain the Eternal- it is far better to know that we are the children of God than to gain something in this world, which we will eventually lose. Satan's ultimate lie is that you are capable of being god of your own life-- and his bondage is the attempt to live as though his lie were truth.


I always carry this yellow pad paper where I wrote this excerpt (to carry the book all the time would be inconvenient for me eh), purpose is for me to be always reminded of the meaning of being free in Christ and the means to follow Him (all mentioned above). It has also been one of the tools I use in ministering to my non-C friends and to friends who just came to know the Saviour and those whom I am establishing a spiritual friendship (two of my dear friends I am having discipleship) with.

I haven't finished the book though, I am still going through the STEPS TO FREEDOM process and I am just amazed (that little by little) I myself am experiencing true FREEDOM I never realized I am in need of!

Last Christmas Season, I bought two copies of the book and had it as my exchange gift (for Connect and Mosaic Party) because I am blessed to have read the book I would want more people to be blessed! And I strongly recommend that you read it and go through the STEPS TO FREEDOM Process, for you'll never know that there are "small things" that you need to let go of, things you never knew you need to renounce and stuff like that...

Ayun lang!

To god be the glory for Dr. Neil Anderson's Ministry!
You may also visit his ministry website at http://www.ficm.org

Hope of the Nations by Brian Doerksen

A song for the Country...

"Jesus hope of the nations

Jesus comfort for all who mourn

You are the source of Heaven's hope on earth


Jesus light in the darkness

Jesus truth in each circumstance

You are the source of Heaven's light on earth


In history You lived and died

You broke the chains You rose to life


You are the hope living in us

You are the rock in Whom we trust

You are the light

Shining for all the world to see


You rose from the dead conquering fear

Our Prince of Peace drawing us near

Jesus our hope living for all who will receive

Lord we believe"

Memory FULL

I was able to get my D900 back last Dec 26 (after more than a month na nsa Service center lang sya at ipinaayos...)

And while waiting for my phone to be fixed, I bought a Samsung E250 as a replacement and at the same time a gift for my dear brother Majar. Hehe! Kaso ayun nga more than one month bago nya na-gamit at na-enjoy ang regalo na yun. Sorry naman daw bunso!

And of course, I have these messages that I received while using the E250 and I have to delete it cause it's eating up the phone memory... Kaya lang, nagpapaka-sentimental mode ako so eto! Ise-save ko sila dito! Hehehe ulet!

Text messages that made me smile, made me sigh, blessed me, encouraged me and all! Some of them dated July-October 2007 came from my sim's memory na kailangan na din idelete... wala lang na-share ko lang din!

Here goes...

071207 / 8:05 am
- Hi, mis u daughter. We praise God 4 d many things He is doing in ur life. who wud ever thnk that ud turn out 2 be what u r? keep on seeking God's best 4 u! :-o

071307 / 12:47 pm
- Rajsh tnx ha! Namis kita! :-)

071207 / 2:46 pm
-ah ok. hehe. ms egypt

071407 / 10:45 pm
- Iyak k sa Lord. I wish I can hug you & share whatever u r feeling. Isipin mo n lng ung Romans 8:18ff. It isnt easy living in a fallen world.

071407 / 10:59 pm
- Am glad these experiences are teaching you new insights of God's character.

071507 / 8:15 pm
- Aaaah. Gud 2 knw na u stil concder me everytym n malungkot ka. kht no nmn mangyari e lagi ka p dn mgnda my prnces rajah.

072307 / 12:36 pm
- Rajsh thank u 4 dat inspiring msge. may u continually grow in Christ and be bold enuf in His words. God bless (",)

072807 / 1:45 pm
-Ok lan un. kmsta k n? Sory d kgd kt ntxt kklod ko lan e. pnthan k sna nmin ni sger pro ms mbti ng mkpgphnga k. pgaling k kgd. dnt mke me wory 2 mch ok?

072807 / 9:30 pm
- Ei rajsh, how are u na? nkpgphnga knb? pnta sna kme mike jan knna kso d agd ako nkbalik s ofis. bk maabala dn phnga mo. i knw ul b fine. was relievd nun cnabi mo n nkauwi kna nd u ddnt hv 2 stay s hospital. nbatem pt ako kya dko mkpgtx. k2uwi ko lan. my med kb tntake? church tyo 2m pgkya mo n ha. pnta ko senyo pgdmo p kya

072907 / 10:48 pm
- Hey, mejo k2uwi ko, pgdaan ko mega e sale, bought 2 pants, 250p each, whahehehe.. ms madami thank you sayo, diko lan m-expres how gr8ful i am..sobra saya ko 2day, ang gaan ng pkramdam..say thank u 4me kina raya at mahar.. i love you nd im so thankful 2 hv u.. mwah!

081007 / 12:50
- :-) thanks. Love u guys too! Good night and God bless! 11:1

091607 / 6:13
- Hi, rajsh, ive told my parents abt my plans 4 baptism, im hapy dat dey naturaly suportd my plans, sbi pa ni mama bsta religion walang dpat pgusapan, kung may personal, spiritual growth then go. biniro ko pa nga dating daan un tlga sasalihan ko, dun dw tlga mgaaway kme. hehe. il invite dem on my day of baptism.

091807 / 12:18 pm
- Hi.

092107 / 5:15 pm
- Rajsh. Thanks 4 praying 4us. im also prayng 4 u guys.. ol of u are such a blesng 4 me.. be still

092507 / 11:36 pm
- Mis u raja

101607 / 7:08 pm
- Bt ngun mo ln ako tnxt? i dnt cr abt d money. hw r u? mbti p n u gv urself a rest 4 d rest of d wik pra mkphnga k ng hus2. dlawin k n lan nmin ni sager lgi.

102307 / 5:20 pm
- ok lng. aq na bahala. rest well. m8k sure everythngs olryt b4 u go bak 2 work. ur health is more impt. God bless and keep me posted.

102607 / 5:05 pm
- We r blesdfuly HAPPY 2 hear that ur nw at home.. praise God!.. ur d 1 hu inspires me/us nsted we r 2 u.. May r loving FATHER graciously cntinue 2 tke care of u & 4u

110307 / 6:44 pm
- Yes, wait... its not easy but its worth it!

110407 / 11:11 pm
- I just would like to share to u because u are important to me. That ____ and I are engaged! :-)

111007 / 12:30 am
- Ryt! God hs reli d prfct tym 4 evriting. tnx 4 bein my silent mentor rajsh! u may nt knw 8 cmplitly, bt asyd frm bein my prayer prtner, ur my mentor. hehe nyt2 sis ;-)

111007 / 11:06 pm
- M proud of u bex! mwuah! txt kta 2mro. nhrapan ako wala pko budget. he2. labyuh.

112207 / 11:28 am
- ei! It was nice seein you guys again. :)

112207 / 11:40 pm
-Tnx a lot. I dnt want to sound problematix pero ang dami lang pagsubok. pnptay kmi d2! Wah. Tpos ayun bsta sna magkatym tyo sa isa't-isa. Na-appreciate tlg kta!

112307 / 5:46 pm
- Happy thanksgiving!

120607/ 8:46 am
- O yes, alam mo ba sobrang fvorite ko ung heb. If ders 1 verse i alwys say out lous in d past fw wks, its heb 12:2-3. tnx rajs.

120707 / 9:28 am
- Gud am! of u pla kgb i didnt knw! hinahanap kita kay gel i thot myskt ka hehe neweiz cu 2nyt hehe

120707 / 10:51 pm
- Daming nghahanap sayo sa gcf. hehehe

120907 / 8:45 am
- I guess what hinders me to worship and fully obey God is the fact that i haven't forgiven those people who have hurt me in the past and present.

120907 / 1:18 pm
- I jz hope u wont get tired of praying and caring 4 me kht mtgas ulo ko. Cz i knw u knw dts wt i needed during ds tyms...

120907 / 1:30 pm
- Thanks 4 gvng me many options. Wther o lyk it, or it i lyk it. either way, i do. slamat po. D ko rn nrealyz na s tgal ntn d ngusap, conio taglish ka nrn pala mgsalita.

121007 / 6:33 am
- Rajsh! Hope ur feeling better. praying 4 u... Mwuah! I miss u na.

121007 / 1:19 pm
- tnx dear. Luvya sis

121007 / 2:16 pm
- God bless u 2.. thanx 4 those encouragng words. Keep it up and Be still (",)


121007 / 4:07 pm
- Hay rajsh... Sad tlga yung situation ko. Please continue to pray for me, it is not east and hnd ako ready to reveal it to you kasi nhHya ako. Nga pla paano ka nakakapag-ipo. Gusto ko din matuto. yung tipong i can still give to my family wYl saving up for myself.

...and more to come! Hehehe may mga hindi pa ako nadedelete sa phone ni majar.

mixed emotions

(Here is an excerpt from my prayer journal, I was somewhat feeling weird when I wrote this, sabi ko nga "mixed emotion" ako nito... Wala lang just wanna share...)

"Lord... I am very happy... but at the same time there's a part of me na natatakot. Scared in a sense na I might get too attached... na baka dumating yung time na masaktan ako for whatever reason na hindi ko po alam kung ano... So Lord I am lifting up to You my... May it be that as we grow closer to each other and learn from our experiences, we would also learn more of You! That the lessons we have learned and will learn may serve as a rebuke, an encouragement for us three. I pray that You cleanse us and continue to teach us to pursue righteousness and holiness. May it be Lord God that you teach us to be disciplined in terms of... May it be that we would truly hold accountable for one another... Bast po Lord, bottom line is kayo po ang bahala sa amin! Rule over this friendship..."

Moment

"For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come and will not delay"

Habakkuk 2:3

I had an emotional Friday yesterday.

I went home around 5am (kaw ba naman mag-hang out with two friends until 4am the previous night eh) Ayun at paguwi ko, umiiyak lang ako...

I was crying because of just one thing-- I had a major prayer item answered na, pero for the past few week I have been denying to myself that it was answered na. Yun tipo bang ayokong tanggapin na yun yung sagot ni God. Na tipong deadma galore lang ako, as if matatakasan ko ang katotohanan! Hehe, sorry naman daw Lord!

Sobrang tinamaan ako sa sinabi nung kaibigan ko na-- "You can never question God's sovereignty..." at meron pa syang matinding hirit "there's a difference between denial and conviction..." habang nagkukwento sya ng buhay-buhay nya. Little did he know that I was like tinatamaan galore! Hmp... the Lord works amazingly tlaga!

So until I woke up around 10am I was crying... And praying hard... I wasnt able to go to work nga for my Friday shift because of kakaisip at dahil sa kakaisip inatake ako ng tension head ache ko, hahaha! Ayun I had to sleep all night lang...

I was texting with my Mom, for the reason that she's the only one who knows all the details of this specific concern. And that I coudln't afford to share it to anyone na kasi I might have to explain everything pa, eh ayoko na ikwento! Waaahhh!

Malungkot ako, oo pero I was at the same time rejoicing kasi during those crying moments I am able to enjoy and savour being in the loving arms of my God, and all I want to do that moment was to rest and enjoy being in His presence ALONE!

I appreciate what my Mom said when I asked her if it's okay for me to just rest and spend time alone with God and be absent from work. She said "Good. Will be praying for you." I was like, alin ang good doon? Then she replied back "What ur doing... and what God is doing in ur life. Learn all u can." tpos may pahabol pa sya na "do what is best..."

At nakatulugan ko na nga...

Lesson learned?

Number one was-- I was hurting pero the hurt was not that painful, mahirap i-explain that it was not that heavy for my to carry kasi I had pour it out to the Lord. I did not became bitter towards it because I have felt HIS love for me... despite the "answered prayer". And I can only say HAAAYYYY right now.

The Lord indeed has wonderful plans for me. I may not know what those plans are NOW but I'm holding on to His promise.

After I woke up this morning there was no more burden. I feel relaxed kahit namumugto ang mga mata ko...

At maraming salamat na din sa mga taong nanalangin for me (Osie, Regie, Raya, Abe and Mama), sana wala akong nakalimutan sa inyo.

Ayun lang... HAAAYYYY...

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, PLANS TO GIVE YOU HOPE AND A FUTURE"
Jeremiah 29:11